I ran away from it…
I had a good woman, then i let a cocaine and alcoholism ruin me so much that i lost her. We were together 6 years, i thought i would be fine but two years into being single the pandemic happened.
Now I’m constantly revisiting everything i did wrong and how i could have settled down with someone who loved me and wanted too and all i needed was to get my shit together.
I was scared, i was scared of my vices at the time, my mental health, being unable to be a good father, and my finances. I was living with my mom then, now i live alone.
She’s happy with someone else now.
In my first year of therapy, i described similar issues as yourself in feeling alone and i described how after my break up that going to the movies, go eat, or going out to dance just wasn’t the same, and she recommended I do it alone. She said just do it throw yourself out there see how to goes. I began to find that i had a better time than before with bad influencing friends or dates. In fact i met more people and made some pretty cool friends, it won’t always be the case but it’s a matter of just putting yourself out there and eventually a conversation will strike up somewhere with someone.
Those concerts, sports events, and clubbing may actually go better because you might meet more people at them.
My only closest friends right now don’t see eye to eye with me politically, i would love more commie friends myself, but they mean well and i find that even if i can’t decondition them past US propaganda, I find that their hearts are in the right place when you break it down on certain issues. I am not trans but if i were to come out, i know my friends would have my back. If your current friends don’t have your back like that maybe you need new ones.
My mental health currently ain’t at its best honestly, but i highly recommend you keep going out alone you will make new friends you align with. Especially as a with your local commie party.
No but i completely agree with your point, like all I’m pointing out is our movements have also been amplified by people outside of the Frontline that Consider themselves socialists.
We need more artist, scientists, lawyers, public figures, athletes, etc on board because that always provides a good gateway for their followers to explore their political beliefs
Ok another, most working class communities which just so happen to be predominantly black and brown, have ridiculous access to affordable foods which just so happen to be fast food and other unhealthy foods no human being should be eating consistently.
These communities are also disproportionately more affected by the obese epidemic, with countless deaths and medical conditions caused by the inhumane ingredients used in everything. I’m not gonna go head and say the CIA or the govt would go to these lengths but when we look at their fuckin track record it’s not hard to put it past them.
There have been horrible eating habits in these communities encouraged by consumerism, and false advertising.
As someone who once weighed 288, at 5’7, by the age of 27. I’m currently at 253, i gained from 238. My cocaine, alcohol addictions but most of all my eating conditions and habits made it impossible to even have a good metabolism. I quit then and i have a year without drinking. Now I’m 30, and i only have so much time of my good metabolism years, and I’m desperately trying to lose the weight. My biggest fault is my eating habits, and lack of time from constantly working.
I’ll admit to have an internalize fat phobia, but I wish i had taken care of this sooner. I fall of the wagon from working out sometimes because I’m just work tired. We have to teach self control. We need to promote healthy physical lifestyles as communists. This is important for the future of our working class communities. US black and brown communities are the ones with all the junk food and liquor stores. It’s not a coincidence. They put crack in our hoods, no one else and used to to brutalize us. They only care about the opioid epidemic because it’s a terror in 1% communities.
Because then there’s a sociology and cultural aspect that isn’t being applied during the period of 60s to 70s the Roman Catholic Church in Latin America started to have Archbishops that preached liberation theology which in turn laid some foundations for a Marxist gateway if you will, of people starting to lean really left. This is apparent in El Salvador and Nicaragua FMLN and FSLN
I’m not trying to be confrontational but I wanted to present Are we able to agree that not everyone is a front line communist? What I’m saying is for every Fidel, or Stalin, there’s also Paul Robeson, Albert Einstein, 2pac
There are artists, and everyday people who want to amplify their beliefs through different means
But i do believe that the inherit duty of a communist is to get involved whenever you can.
I quit for 5 years with little relapses in between until recently.
I haven’t been going crazy with it but I’ve noticed a consistent spike in use. It’s a matter of self control, i would still self pleasure with imagination but i would get frustrated because the images I’d put in my head are very pornographic. It’s an uphill battle but I’m proud to report that in my recent use, i found that the rose tinted view i had of porn has gone away i can see through it and see that it is definitely unhealthy.
I don’t have much to answer your question but i do have an example of one
My dad on his final years in El Salvador, hired a Nicaraguan singer for his band. When they arrived for one of their first shows to the club, the wall of the outside of the club has been painted with these words in Spanish
“The FMLN welcomes (woman’s names) to El Salvador”
Now as i grew older and talked to retired FMLN members, i found that all of them agreed that it is NOT something they would have ever done during that time of war. They all agreed its something the Reagan backed military definitely would have done to invoke fear into everyone around the area and mark the individual with marx-jacket (instead of a snitch jacket).
This is a psy-op tactic
If I’m wrong on my example please feel free to correct me
I’m aware I was just sharing my plans to go back to my homeland I’ve only been to the Caribbean once, in Cuba