Hey Comrades,
With the current state of the world and general increase in negative feelings and emotions as a result of the current state of affairs, I wanted to start a community weekly vent post.
This will be for anything you need to talk about related to your mental health that is bothering you. If you feel overwhelmed, angry, scared, depressed, anxious, anything, write what you’re feeling and why below. Let’s use this as a place to help each other get through this awful shite.
I already made my post in the freechat community but yeah I’m struggling really bad with drug usage and severe derealization, depression, anxiety and just in and out of this weird void feeling.
This is all happening while the world is burning and I’m getting increasingly scared because of it and also spiraling feeling like a loser because I still haven’t fucking joined an org or gotten my new job
I don’t want to die but I don’t know how to live without being in misery
Am I overexaggerating? I can’t even tell anymore.
My life seems to revolve around running away from how I feel and doing anything to forget the pain I’m in
What is there even to feel like this for i have such a privileged life compared to most I feel like I should just suck it up but at the same time I feel incapable
Dumbass rant over
You should write down what you’re feeling in a private journal and save it for the future. I’ve done it and I’m thankful to have proof of the way I was feeling back then, I need to remember the pain I forgot. It’s not like I’m the same person but it helps me have more respect for the past I have.
But don’t go back to your notes constantly and alone.
That is a really good idea. Thank you, panic <3
I feel a lot of compassion reading what I wrote back then. One day you’ll read ot back and understand that the “bad choices” you made at least kept you alive and that it wasn’t a fantasy you created.
You don’t have to suck it up. If we only can complain when no-one has it worse, then only one person in the world could even complain.
Your problems are real. They might be easy for some, they might be even harder for others. But they are your problems regardless. It’s okay to struggle, take a step back and evaluate the situation. And it’s okay to not have a direct answer or solution to all your problems at once. It’s one step at a time, brother.
I know it’s easier said than done, but if you can safely quit the drugs, do it. It’s not ever going to make the situation better, and I speak from experience with years of abuse.
For your mental health problems I think it’s best to find a professional if you can. It might need a more professional approach then random online strangers. I found it easy to go see a doctor at first to see if they know people that could help. But in the US, that might be more difficult maybe.
Getting to a point where you can be happy with yourself can be a long and difficult journey. There will be ups and downs, setbacks, progress etc. Try to keep an objective look on your journey. What made me feel bad? What made me feel good? When did I make the most progress and why was I able to do that. Maybe write all of that down, to see if you can notice patterns. That way you can see what happens, what works for you and what doesn’t.
It’s a really useful tool to keep track of your situation.
That makes sense. Something just rubs me the wrong way about how I put myself in this situation and now feel sorry for it. But you’re right.
I definitely am going to try my hardest to quit them. It definitely has not improved my situation.
That sounds like a very good idea and I appreciate the recommendation :)
This is called schema therapy by the way and it’s a great tool for people dealing with the things you are dealing with. Many clients I dealt with benefited from it.