amber (she/her)

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Cake day: November 26th, 2020

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  • However, people who are still harboring viewpoints that are in favor of imperialism should not be allowed on this site. If users like this do a lot of self crit and acknowledge their mistakes, I would not be apposed to them being here. However, users who actively believe that the U$ military is not a reactionary force, and that its soldiers should be treated with any level of respect should never be able to make it past account creation.

    This isn’t representative of frauddog at all though? Like maybe I’m misunderstanding something but it sounds like you are saying this is the kind of person frauddog is and that’s obviously untrue. Frauddog joined the military as a teenager, and now as an adult is very aggressively against imperialism and colonialism. It’s not like null is an active troop secretly infiltrating this place. I think null should have had more humility in void’s last interaction on this site, like obviously having been part of the us military is pretty fucking shameful even if you were ignorant at the time, but it’s really bothering me how people have been acting as though null was like, a secret fed who actually loves the us military or some shit. And it’s frustrating to me that this is how null went out, because null had been talking about wanting to delete for a while due to the frequent racism from white users on this site, but since it went down like this if feels like that racism, that continues to harm users here, is being ignored in favor of pointing out a gotcha about a user they didn’t like. Idk, I know my thoughts are disorganized here but hopefully I’m making sense.


  • Why does it matter if the site looks less active than it is? It’s not like there would actually be a difference in the amount of activity if someone made a post in the trans community vs a comment in the trans mega, and the megas themselves are pinned to the top of the feed so I think they would be tough to miss. Personally, if posting in the megas were discouraged I would just post less, because I don’t feel the sort of things I comment in the megas would make good standalone posts. They are more like light chats or just talking about some stuff that happened that day, things like that.

    The news mega would be the exception in my opinion, I do think that there’s often stuff posted in there that would be worth it’s own post, but I also don’t think it’s a big enough problem to warrant mods intervening.


  • cw: sui

    i feel bad and scared for everyone who’s shit is gonna get all messed up by this of course, but for me personally it’s hard to feel like anything will significantly change because i was already forced to detransition thanks to biden, my local politicians, and our corporate overlords fucking my entire life up mostly through their lack of response to covid and i never recovered. for a while now i have just felt angry and like killing myself all of the time and i guess logically i know it can get worse, hell it was worse for me not even that long ago, but emotionally it’s still more than i can handle and it makes it really hard to give a shit about anything.



  • I started Dark Souls II and made a cartoonish fancy butler type guy because I’m planning on doing a dex build to change it up from my usual build in these games (all strength caveman), and a goofy posh asshole seemed like the appropriate form for that. I also started 9 Hours, 9 Persons, 9 Doors for when I’m not feeling up to getting my head smashed in. Plus handheld gaming is always nice for the commute home.


  • As far as virtual pinball goes, Visual Pinball X is a FOSS simulator and works great. Agreed that it can be an expensive hobby though. I’m pretty poor and even playing in arcades is too expensive for me to do regularly. I can’t imagine ever owning a table, or even one of those faux tables that looks like a real machine but is actually just a simulation.


  • So almost three weeks ago I asked my boss about an accommodation at work (I didn’t phrase it this way but they immediately knew that’s what it is). It’s a totally reasonable request imo and has a minuscule cost. Boss says they are fine with it and will talk to HR. Fast forward to today and I see the HR rep for the first time since then. I follow up with them about it and my boss never even brought it up with the rep 🫠

    Apparently I need to wait another couple weeks due to logistical stuff. I guess it needs to go through the business owner too which has completely tanked any confidence I had in this, because this person is super ableist and has stood in the way of my efforts here several times before (even when it literally didn’t affect them at all). Just feeling really pessimistic.









  • You do hit a certain point where you basically can’t lose though, especially if you use Shield Maiden block build.

    Shield Maiden is so silly lol. Granted I’ve only done one run as her, but I was excited to try a new character since she wasn’t in the game the last time I had played. Then I built up enough block strength that I noticed I could just stand still and realized maybe I don’t want to play this character… The idea of being so tanky that nothing can hurt you is kinda fun but in practice it just feels like, if I can put my controller down and let the game play itself for a minute while I sip my drink, then what’s the point of playing a game where the whole appeal is dodging swarms of enemies?


  • I couldn’t fight off the urge to start something new so Final Fantasy VI is on the back burner for now. In its place I’ve started Cave Story, which I’ve only played about 2 hours of so far but I’ve been enjoying. Other than that I’ve been on a big pinball kick. There’s a table at my work that I found a good virtual recreation of, so I’ve been learning the mechanics and practicing in the hopes that I can get on the leaderboard. I only need 30 or 40 million to get on there, I can’t remember which at the moment, and I’ve already gotten a little over 20 million as my personal best so I think with some more practice and a little luck I’ll get on there soon enough.

    As for my favorite games I played for the first time this year:

    Chrono Trigger

    What is there to say about this one? Everyone knows it’s a beloved game. Pretty close to the ideal RPG for me. Fun combat, fantastic music, lovable cast, interesting story with just the right amount of cheesiness, nice art, no annoying random encounters, not too long. AND there’s a bisexual cave woman? What else can I ask for?

    Castlevania: Symphony of the Night

    My first foray into the Castlevania series, and I’m very glad I did. I was a little worried I wouldn’t be able to enjoy this one because I am honestly ass at platformers/side-scrolling action games, but it actually wasn’t too bad. The game feels great to move around in and almost all of the bosses were fun to tackle. I really loved the feeling of struggling with a fight the first couple tries and then figuring out a strategy that the boss couldn’t deal with and just obliterating it. The exploration was a good time too, you’d think the backtracking would get tedious but in my experience it wasn’t bad. I ended up playing Aria of Sorrow right afterwards and will definitely be playing Dawn of Sorrow in the near future. I definitely want to try the SotN randomizer some time soon and check out some of the indie metroidvanias that passed me by before as well.

    When They Cry

    Two somewhat notorious mystery visual novels. Technically I started Higurashi in 2023, but a good amount of the time I spent reading it was in 2024, and I went from that straight into Umineko so I’m just gonna count the two together. Both of these have rattled around in my brain basically non-stop since finishing them, and yet I still don’t really know how to put my feelings into words. I don’t really know if I would recommend either? They are both extremely long (each has a longer word count than the Bible lol), have some seriously problematic elements, and deal with very heavy topics. Due to the nature of the stories I don’t really want to say any more than that. If you did want to check these out, just be warned that they can be triggering in many ways. I would say if you need it to get someone you trust to screen each first through something like doesthedogdie.com, or if they’ve already read it themselves even better. Otherwise go in knowing as little as possible.


    As for games that actually came out this year, well, I barely played any… I guess Caves of Qud is pretty fun? I think I would really like it if I played more, but roguelikes where you play as the same character over several play sessions never really stick for me. Halls of Torment and Balatro have both been good for the occasional play session, but I’m not too excited about either. There was some cool looking stuff on my back log I meant to play that came out this year, but I never got around to them. Maybe next year!