I don’t know how to explain it, but since I’ve been studying Dialectical Materialism (and mindfulness too, but may not be as related), I’ve had this intense feeling/emotion/thought pattern that’s been emerging that I’ve had a tough time putting words to. I’ve done lots of research into the idea and talked to a lot of people, and I think it’s a fuzzy sense of interconnectedness that’s being given to me by this radical shift in cognition that I’ve had over these past couple years. Just really noticing and feeling the complex interconnection between everything in the world, and the patterns that make up the world, and how everything in the world is interdependent on everything else in the world and trying to observe that structure of the world we live in. I feel like i’ve never had this kind of nuance in my thinking before, and I like it, despite the occasional bouts of anxiety it causes. The closest fields of study that I’ve found, besides marxism/dialectical materialism of course, has been Systems Theory. In my research, some computing/math topics like recursion and fractals have also appeared, but I’ve yet to figure out their relevance, besides just being types of patterns. A couple of neuroscience topics cropped up as well, but, again, not sure the relevance, so I want to start with looking at the crossover in theory between Marxism-Leninism and Systems Theory. I’m decently familiar with ML, just been reading through the recommendations on the ML Reading Hub site, but I have literally zero experience with Systems Theory, however, I would love to learn, if you have any recommendations. Or if you think I sound like I’m losing my mind, that’s also valid lol, I sort of feel that way while typing this out and just being like “it’s all connected man!!!”. Thanks for any responses, regardless lol.