I’m 17F, one year away from being kicked out of my parent’s house. As soon as I’m 18 they’re forcing me to go to a 4 year college. As of now I’m regretting my life decisions. My backup plan is to purse electrical engineering, but I don’t have any experience behind me. All the classes I’ve taken in high school don’t even count towards it. Also, there is no engineering STEM programs at my school either.

My parents ridicule me on how I’m not doing anything in life. I don’t participate in academic stuff. I have no extra curriculars, no sports, no nothing. Yeah, I guess there’s something wrong with that. I mean all I do is go home, school work, watch anime, or practice making music. From 3 to 9 P.M is all the free time I have. And at this point, I don’t really focus on school anyone. I’m running behind on assignments and haven’t done much of them since second semester started.

Firstly, I don’t really wanna go to college. It’s a big scam in the US, and I don’t have any money to move to another country and try to get an education there. It’s like hell in the US. If you’re poor, you’re most likely stuck there for a very long time.

I don’t wanna pursue a skill or a trade, I don’t want a white collar job nor desire to be wealthy. I actually plan on becoming a digital nomad that travels to many places. I don’t want to settle in one place. The thought of being in an office sitting on my ass all day is dreadful, and the thought of working in the same building until retirement is dreadful. I don’t wanna work the usual 9 to 5 in the same boring office building, and I don’t wanna wait until I get those two weeks off a year or less. I also don’t want to make traveling a career, because I hate making a “job” out of something fun. All I wanna do is have fun. I hate the word “work.” I like to focus on something worthwhile, not help produce something I don’t even have control over so my boss can fill their pockets. Yeah I’ll be doing that with remote work, but the only reason I want to do remote work is to have more free time.

Oh well! Why don’t I suck it up? Why don’t I accept this life? Well I don’t want to. I don’t want to be someone I’m not. I don’t want to live a lie. I don’t ask for much, I just want to be free, that’s all. This world is so fucking large, why not explore it? It’s an open world!

  • Kirbywithwhip1987
    12·
    2 years ago

    Omg me and my brother are literally in a very similar situation.

    I’m home schooled now, he is still going and we do homework together with help of sister when they come back home, besides that, we spend time on anime, movies, games and other hobbies, none of us want to go to college, sister already refused and is not going, parents are divorced and mom understands it, but father’s side of family(except grandma) is pain in ass sometimes and he’s removed about it but thankfully he lives far in another town/settlement and doesn’t have any power. There is no point in college except losing nerves, if high school is like this, I can’t even fathom the thought of college.

    We live in Balkans and probably everyone knows the situation here about LGBT, that’s one of the reason I’m homeschooled currently and am introverted, whole family except mom is pain in ass about that too and I’m not even daring on coming out. Me and my siblings have a totally different style of interests, hobbies and living than what’s considered the ‘‘norm’’ here.

    I’m also the same about work and all except I like it where I am and would not go anywhere under any circumstances. I don’t want to be rich, I don’t want wealth, I don’t want fame, I don’t want marriage, I don’t want cars, I don’t want any of that, I just want to live my life here with my loving siblings and be left alone by most of the family for trying to live my life in a different way than them.

  • linkhidalgogato
    10·
    2 years ago

    nah i think we all feel mostly like that but hey thats life.

    anyways im finishing my bachelors in electrical engineering this year and while i could be a little biased since its what i have wanted basically since i could want things but i fucking love it, its been a beautiful so far and i highly recommend it. also i didnt do anything special in preparation for college while i was in high school fuck i wasted 2 years on a dual enrolment IT course which didnt even get me a job and certainly had nothing to do with what i ended up studying (still a bit salty of it), so i think you’ll be fine if you decide to got for it and didnt prepare while in high school. tho i did go out of my way to get a decent scholarship and that did help. and i dont think its a scam if you go to community college and then a good “public”(really hate how almost all are partially private despite having being built with government money, the wonders of neo-liberalism) university.

  • KiG V2
    3·
    2 years ago

    This sounds very difficult. I know this might be unsatisfactory, but in my experience the right answers often come at the time they are needed most. You may have to go through trial and error and many failures before discovering the path that is best for you. Best of luck, comrade.