Please do not listen to them, this is an incredibly debilitating weight to carry on your back through your life, and this is not a problem that can simply be “pushed through”. They will most likely never understand the true nature of what is happening to you, and you cannot let that harm you. By not taking the medication your life will only be made progressively worse, which will lead to extremely high chances of co-morbid illnesses and suicide.

Again, I am unsure of your exact situation and opportunities, but I will urge you with all my heart to reach out to medical services and medical professionals in order to receive treatment for this. I promise that it will improve your life significantly, and you can leave the majority of these symptoms in the past like bad memories.