It would be a lie to say I knpw what you are going through, as I have no children, however 1) do not appologise for ranting, your nervous and scared, if you need someone to talk to I can listen, and I am sure others would too, we are a comunity. 2) yeah anti-communists say that at every major milestone, they assume at some point you will lose your want pf a better society for everyone, and turn inword and want to be the boot that steps on people to get a little ahead, I would not put a second thought to his comment about your beliefs, I am sure if nothing else you will want to see her have the best future possible l, and that is one with a red banner. 3) The worry you are discribing, I would be more conserned if you where not feeling it, or if you felt blesed she was born into capitalism. You are already worried about her and her future, and that is exactly what a father should be doing.