I’m sorry for the depressing topic, it’s just been an extremely lonely and disappointing day. I’ve tried to keep busy to avoid the feeling, but it’s getting to me and I just feel awful.
I’ve been ostracized from my very small family due to their dysfunction and my sexuality, and I live in a very rural area roughly 40km from my nearest friend who is busy with their own family. Coupled with the fact that I have no community, organization, or group to associate with, it all just seems very depressing and meaningless. I couldn’t even afford a Christmas tree this year, so I collected some nice pine branches to make a small bundle that I decorated, but even that now seems pathetic and miserable. I just wish I had people to spend the holiday with, even a single person would be nice.
I’ll probably just game for a bit and then head to bed early, holidays are always awful.
It’s too easy to say but I’m gonna say it anyway: it’s just another day.
That being said, I’m sorry you feel lonely. No person should feel lonely ever. We are here for you comrade, and we can work towards a better future together. Vent if you need to, talk whenever you want to. Over here, someone will always listen.
Thanks Dank, that means a lot to me. I’ve spent my life trying to be the “Stoic Yes Man” so it’s always been very difficult for me to express myself, because “Who would ever want to hear about that? That’s how you’ll drive everyone away Salad!”. So it’s very nice to hear your reassurance and to read your kind words.
We will build a better future together. Even in my sadness I can see the root of my problems in the artificially forced lack of community, the banal evil of the desire for wealth, and the dehumanization and isolation of the common person. I will work to uproot this system with every ounce of energy I have, so that no one will have to suffer the same way I, and many people like me, have.