I’m sorry for the depressing topic, it’s just been an extremely lonely and disappointing day. I’ve tried to keep busy to avoid the feeling, but it’s getting to me and I just feel awful.
I’ve been ostracized from my very small family due to their dysfunction and my sexuality, and I live in a very rural area roughly 40km from my nearest friend who is busy with their own family. Coupled with the fact that I have no community, organization, or group to associate with, it all just seems very depressing and meaningless. I couldn’t even afford a Christmas tree this year, so I collected some nice pine branches to make a small bundle that I decorated, but even that now seems pathetic and miserable. I just wish I had people to spend the holiday with, even a single person would be nice.
I’ll probably just game for a bit and then head to bed early, holidays are always awful.
I’m sorry, comrade :/ loneliness is extremely hard and probably one of the saddest things to experience as a human. You’re in my thoughts and I hope you can find something to do or someone to spend it with :) happy holidays my friend, we love you
Sadly I didn’t find anyone to spend it with or anything to do, but I’ll get through it. Loneliless probably is the most dangerous human state, seeing as how it runs against hundreds of thousands of years of evolution. But thank you for your response though :)