I did for about two years full time. Due to circumstance I’m about to begin again part time and my sleep schedule is already screwed. All the training happens in the daytime too so that sucks. How y’all coping? Staying healthy and doing ok? I’m thinkin about asking my doc if I can try Modafinil whenever it gets started back up but I haven’t researched it enough to know if the benefits outweigh the drawbacks.
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Good advice, thank you. My personal relationship w/ weed is complicated. It makes me anxious and self-conscious to high hell anymore regardless of how much I use and so I tend to stay away from it. I’ve tried melatonin a few times before and I know some people claim that it’s mostly placebo, that stuff felt like one of the most debilitating drugs I’ve ever taken, to the point where even just standing up about 30 minutes after dosing felt nigh impossible – very wobbly.
Going to sleep clean is a phenomenal feeling. I even like the way wet/damp hair feels on a pillow lol. My only issue is I feel dysfunctional if I go into work without a shower and my skin is quite sensitive so bathing twice can irritate me pretty bad.
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I’ve never done coke (never really had the option) but I’d probably try it in the right setting. I had a similar experience with MDMA tho, everyone around me seemed to be having the time of their lives, super open and loving and ecstatic. It felt like a mild kratom high to me, but my medications also probably impacted the experience. Didn’t feel too bad the next day, but it was all just meh. There’s sort of a stigma or pushback that I find kind of understandable to all sorts of illicit drugs among MLs because of their debilitating effects and their historical uses by state departments, but I absolutely adore psychedelics. Mostly just when I’m alone and can think, even though I’ve usually been around people when doing it. I did like 6g psilo once alone and it was an utter nightmare, a nightmare that changed my life in incredible and indescribable ways. At least for a little while. “Ego death” etc etc. I like to use LSD thought spirals to delve into pretty dark systemic issues – stared at a high school once for a while just thinking about how much it looked like a prison and I finally got what that sort of discourse was about. Dialectical materialism also clicked so much more heavily with me whenever I was tripping. When I’m with people they try to keep me from thinking about those things and I try to stay away from them because I don’t want to “kill the vibe”. Which is fine, but the vibe is not my favorite thing about those experiences. DMT was mostly just fun as hell – a waking dream – and I started painting after trying it.
You’ve certainly got me thinking about setting up a meditation sleep ritual before bed, not something I’d considered before but it seems like it could be very useful. I have been meaning to meditate but keep pushing it off and I think incorporating it that way wouldn’t be too jarring. Thanks comrade.
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