I will not denounce her publicly as she could ruin my benefit appeal for me, as I have said. I am already in danger of homelessness and have no money for food, and it’s bad enough when it’s temporary. I am not going to make my situation permanent by pissing her off so she ruins my life.
And yes, suicide is often the answer. I am having lifelong cancer treatment which is awful and has ruined my life. I’ve had a stroke (as a result of the cancer treatment) which has left me partially sighted and unable to walk properly. I’m in constant pain, there’s no cure and the doctors say I’m at risk of another stroke or the cancer coming back. I live in absolute poverty so bad I have to beg for food on here because I can’t work and society thinks people who don’t work shouldn’t eat. I will spend the rest of my life in pain, having horrible medical treatments, disabled, being dragged through endless disability benefit assessments and appeals, in poverty. Every time I have my benefits stopped during another appeal I’ll be back here, begging for food aid, making post after post until someone answers. My feet are so infected with ulcers that I need multiple surgeries on them. I have to beg for the money to buy the bandages because the NHS doesn’t provide them. And it’s looking like soon I’ll be homeless, in winter, while ill.
Quite honestly I found your post offensive, narrow-minded, judgmental and completely thoughtless. "It’s a stupid and narrow decision that should be avoided at all costs" “I feel like you’re not evaluating things correctly.” “Don’t be afraid of the hardships,” this is nothing but patronising drivel. I am tired of people like you trying to pressure me into being some kind of martyr to a cause. Just because you are lucky enough not to be in a position where there is no way out does not mean you’re better at evaluating situations than other people. I should not be pressured into decades more pain, illness, unwanted medical treatments, poverty and homelessness just because some people refuse to accept that other people should be allowed to decide their lives aren’t worth living. Do you even know or care what the statistics are on homeless women being raped? Nearly a tenth of homeless women get raped twice a year on average! Why tf should I live a life of multiple rapes just because you think I should be devoting my existence to campaigning? So easy for you to say all this shit when you aren’t the one at risk. Not to mention if I become homeless soon after my foot surgeries I’ll be on the streets with open surgical wounds, nowhere clean or dry to change the dressings, no way to wash and soak my feet as instructed, the feet will probably get much more infected than they are now.
I don’t judge those who commit suicide you say, then go on to say that people who do it are stupid. This is the most infuriating and judgmental post I’ve ever seen on this site. I don’t owe it to you or to any cause to live like this. If you don’t think homelessness is a big deal, then give me your home and you go and live on the street. You know what, I’ve had several people on here and hexbear toy with me for fun, string me along promising me food aid, and then not delivering. I thought those people were the lowest of the low, but all the crap you just said is even more upsetting and disappointing than that.
The incredible irony is, you can see how shit and infuriating the things my therapist said to me were, and you denounce her for that, and then YOU go and say things that are just as bad, if not worse. Absolutely no self-awareness at all. What you’re doing is no different than what capitalists do - treating me like I’m not a human but a commodity that has to provide some value to society while getting nothing in return. Capitalists say “Who cares if you’re too poor to buy a home as long as you can still work and provide value to my business?” While you say, “Who cares if you’re homeless, you can still work for the cause on the streets.” Literally no difference at all.
Definitely. I’ve had several refuse to write me letters for my benefit claims, even though I am diagnosed. It would cost them 5 minutes to do. It costs me everything when they don’t. They just don’t care. And when my current one found out I’ve been feeding myself by begging for food vouchers on here, she looked at me with utter contempt and said I have to stop doing that. Like OK, I’ll just starve then. They really don’t care if I’m starving, destitute and homeless. Then she gets angry that her silly “therapy” hasn’t cured me.
Thanks. I also got a migraine today from being forced to go in a perfume/bleach smelling room. I hate that place.
I’m not sure. My previous therapist, who I saw at the same place in 2019 (and who was also terrible), admitted she wasn’t even qualified yet. If you don’t have to be qualified to work as an NHS therapist I don’t know whether you have to be licensed.
I’ll think about it after the benefit appeal. But really all therapists are shit. I had an emergency appointment with a different one once, as I was feeling very suicidal. She told me to buy the new age book “The Secret,” about the law of attraction, and use it to attract whatever I want into my life, then I won’t be depressed any more. That was all, she then practically shoved me out the door. No more help. They’re all awful.
I’ve thought about it, but there are two problems with that. First I don’t think they’d care, the therapy centre has nothing but 1 star reviews online and they have a huge turnover of staff, no-one is there long enough to care. Also I’m worried she’d get revenge on me by fucking up my benefit appeal somehow, telling them I didn’t attend all the sessions or something. I did miss some of the sessions due to illness.
Fiction or non-fiction? Any particular country or time period? Any particular topic? “Medieval” is pretty wide.
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I have a paypal account, if anyone’s able to help.
OK thanks. After multiple rinses it seems to be pretty much gone now.
Why corn-fed? Are they saying eating corn makes you strong, or that it makes you weak, so even a weak, corn fed man could kill these women?
Thanks for the advice. I’ve taken the filter out and washed it as you suggested. It was pretty clean already, just a little bit of fluffy looking stuff on it. I scrubbed it and put it back. I guess I’ll keep doing washes now until it goes away.
It was dettol. Thanks for the advice, I’ll try it.
The trouble is, this then turns into pushing and starving people back to work even when they are saying they can’t cope with it.
The culture against the disabled in the UK is extremely toxic. Disabled people have literally starved to death when their benefits get stopped, then get victim blamed by the media for not trying harder to get help. And that is just the tip of the iceberg.
I’ve never eaten there, their food smells bad.
Father Christmas.
Considering god created a hellhole of a world for us and Jesus came down here willingly to be tortured, he’s clearly a sadomasochist who enjoyed it. When he got back to heaven he probably wanked himself blind.
Also I think all the obsession god has with no sex outside of marriage - that’s effectively edging. God likes to abstain for as long as possible to make his orgasm stronger - he is literally an edgelord.
The funniest comparison I saw of it was someone likening it to your neighbour constantly sinning against you by parking on your driveway. And the only way you can forgive them is if you break their son’s legs first.
You know what I love the Outlander series - except for the romance and sex scenes. It’s got time travel, action, adventure, divided loyalties, war, political intrigue and attempts to change history, but boring people just focus on the romance and class it as a romance series. The most annoying thing the fandom says, if someone says they aren’t into the romance is “WHy dO YoU WatCH iT tHEn?” Like these people can’t think of any reason to watch or read something other than to see two people banging and declaring their undying love.
Not to mention Narnia - one of the greatest series ever - and no romance! Well, barely any.