• @panic
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    131 year ago

    Seeing that there are terrorists killing actual people citing rightist ideology and concrete explanations about communist projects

  • @bleepingblorp
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    91 year ago

    Taking my liberal teachers way too seriously.

    When they said you should be open minded when debating people, and when learning about debating in good faith, I took it seriously. So later when I debated a communist and got fucking wrecked, well… I was just doing what my liberal teachers taught and kept an open mind.

  • @CountryBreakfast
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    71 year ago

    Losing faith in Christ. That was really one of the biggest things because it tied everything together but losing faith also created a massive rift between me and my reactionary family. Losing faith in Christ gave me faith in myself to become something else despite the fact that I had really lost control of everything.

    I also always knew everything was political. It was how I justified a lot of my conservative views because it was in the interest of Christian, pettybourg society. The arguments and discourses surrounding certain issues were secondary, they were always a red herring. The real issue was developing and flexing political power. I now can contextualize this as having understood my class interests and being well versed in settler political discourse and praxis because of my upbringing. This mindset made it easy for me to shift my politics without apology or shame.

    I’ve also always been a true believer. I was an evangelist. I would pray with strangers and have theological debates with teachers on their own territory with the purpose of proselytizing. It truly was a different life looking back, but its hard for me to half ass this kind of stuff. Even if I don’t really have the agency to do what I think is needed, I can’t just sit on the fence, I can’t just not change how I think. If I think something is consequential, especially if it is abstract or on a macro scale, I fixate on it. This comes with its own baggage, but I think it was part of my fall.

    Another factor is a resentment for dogma and ethical posturing. Im tired of giving moral justifications for everything and sifting through dogma. This is politics, not Sunday school. This was a huge factor in avoiding certain tendencies like MLM and anarchism while I radicalized and has spared me a major headarche.

    • JoeMarx 193
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      15 months ago

      A secondary reason why I went commie.

  • @DoghouseCharlie
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    41 year ago

    Working at a grocery stocking food I couldn’t afford and reading State and Revolution on my breaks.

  • JoeMarx 193
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    35 months ago

    Second Thought, Hakim, and - surprisingly - Infrared. Basically I went neocon > patsoc > MLM > ML pipeline