Hi, I just discovered this site. I’m hoping to make some friends. I’m stuck at home and lonely. So I’ll tell you a bit about myself. I’m cis female, ace. I’ve been having cancer treatment for quite a while and recently had a stroke. I’m going through a disability benefit appeal. All my friends drifted away when I got sick as I was no longer fun. The last time i saw my friends was at my 25th birthday party. I’m turning 41 this year. I’ve had no social life or offline companionship since then. I worked several jobs including fitness instructor and carer for the elderly, then went to university in my 20s to study philosophy. I had to drop out due to the side effects of my cancer meds.

My life now revolves around endless benefit assessments, last one I was awarded zero points and had my money stopped. I’m currently fighting it but now have no money at all and a maxxed out overdraft. Food bank access is awful so I’m starving constantly. I’ve been learning to walk again since the stroke. Previously I was sporty but now it’s painful to even walk. So I wanted to take up art as a hobby, start learning to draw from scratch but I can’t even afford paper and pencils.

So, life is awful. I need a distraction and someone to talk to. I used to talk to the people on a suicide pact forum (I’ve already made on attempt and often feel desperate enough to try again) but I just got banned from there for trying to sell my meds on there. Don’t judge me please - I was only trying to do that out of financial desperation! So now I have literally no-one to talk to online or in real life.

Obviously I’m a leftist. I’m sick of this world where some people are billionaires while millions starve.

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    2 months ago

    Hey! Welcome aboard! :)

    I’m a physician in Spain, but I like to force myself to learn new things all the time (like languages, or one time that I took up a job as a programmer). I don’t really enjoy anything outside of that and sport, so I may not be of much use if you want someone to talk with about books, TV series etc.

    And speaking about books, do you like reading? Is there a public library or similar in your area?

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      2 months ago

      I love reading. My favourite series include the Earth’s Children series by Jean Auel, Outlander by Diana Gabaldon and the Haunted Liverpool series by Tom Slemen.

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        2 months ago

        Cool! Books are an amazing source of knowledge and fun. I just got a (second hand) math book that another user recommended, and it’s so far enthralling. Do you read Marxist books?