I never was the most active user on this platform but has been a few years since I created this account.
During this time I had my ups and downs but I think I ultimately made it. I am in a better place than ever before. Mentally, physically, socially (both in private and in organising) and in career terms.
But I think my time on the grad is over for now. It is just too depressing right now and I fear I will slide into depression again if I stay.
Which brings me to my decision to delete this account.
I had a mostly great time here and I want to thank anyone who helped me, made me laugh or taught me over the years.
I wish all of you best of luck in the present and future and I hope we will all make it through the climate crisis, new heights of fascism and water wars.
Rotfront and goodbye ✊
Cyberspace and meatspace are not mutually exclusive. If done right, they can be mutually beneficial.
Feeling sad is not depression. Depression is a serious mental condition. One can be depressed on a tropical beach, a meadow, or while browsing a website. I’d urge caution because often “shedding” old habits and starting “a new life” can be exhilarating, giving an illusion of improvement due to the oxytocin and other chemicals, but eventually the receptors will be dulled and the feelings of depression will come back. It’s all about discipline, good habits, small steps towards change. Dialectics: small qualitative changes lead to qualitative change. Rarely does change happen suddenly like the movies tell us. The hero smashes his computer, opens the door and is greeted by the sun smiling, birds singing, and people saying “howdy!” as if the world was holding its breath, waiting for them.
Not saying that’s you, just wanted to give my $0.02 on the whole “I’m leaving the internet community and moving onto better things! I’m gonna make it this time, I feel it!”