Honestly not good. A very close family member has a pretty serious disease that’s turning into a disability slowly. It’s disheartening to see and leaves me mentally and emotionally drained. Tough to feel like myself sometimes. I’m finding solace in spending time with family who also love and care for this close family member. I am personally atheist but I find myself praying because I have no other real way of feeling that I’m doing anything for them besides helping them to the bathroom or making them tea or food throughout the day. I know deep down that nothing I can do will help them and only their doctor’s actions will do anything meaningful. I feel not useless by any means but like a companion in a video game, just helping along w tiny tasks while they deal w the brunt of it. I haven’t wanted to talk about it for a while as it’s been progressing for about just over a year now, but I feel so sad and just empty now that I wanna at least type this out. Just wanted to get that out there a little. Sorry if that was a bit depressing lol but it feels good to talk about it a little