I work for people with “developmental disabilities” as it’s known in the biz, and a part of my duties includes finishing online training to get registered properly in my position. I’ve been working at my current place for a few months, and I have a lot of overdue courses I need to finish but I keep pushing it off and pushing it off.

I have 30 lessons that need to be completed, they’re over two weeks past due. Every time I look at my computer screen my eyes start to get blurry and I sort of start to disassociate. Instead of doing this shit I’d rather get high and play video games, even though I know I need to finish it if I want to keep my job and get registered with the state.

Idk. Just so burnt out from the work proper that the paperwork starts to seem insurmountable on my days off. I’ve been doing this kind of work for over 2 and a half years, closer to 3, but since I crossed state lines I’m deemed unqualified and have to redo a lot of the shit I’ve already done, and take lesson after lesson detailing shit I already know intimately. It’s so frustrating. I even get paid for it! As if affording rent isn’t enough of a motivation!