It makes sense comrade. I don’t know about everyone else, but I struggle with the same questions every day. I think all we can do is just… move on. Move forward because if we keep looking back we won’t be seeing whats ahead. Everyone wants adventure, and I think it will come in time. Make friends, make connections, learn and grow. Its all we got. This is of course only my conclusion, and it may not fit or answer your questions. Either way comrade, we are here for you.