I hate the United States. Simple as.
The weirdest struggle for me comes in the form of a thick line between the masses’ reality and my personal experience. I am currently pretty removed from the more severe aspects of capitalism failing (working as intended) but I also have the knowledge that the majority of people in this country (and the world, really) are just barely getting by. This causes some fear to strike in my brain.
The fear comes from:
a.) The possibility of having invested so much time studying politics and Marxism-Leninism just for it to be wrong, capitalism really does work and this was for nothing. Things aren’t really that bad, and (to paraphrase from DankZedong’s post similar to this one a few days ago) we Marxists are just missing the point. Conclusion: I am the insane one.
or
b.) The possibility of us being entirely correct and everyone else around me having bought into the game, this weird cult of capital. Conclusion: The society/system is insane.
Which is it? Are we really just batshit crazy? Or are we the few who have the time/capabilities/desire to understand Marxism and dialectical materialism? Why are we such a minority if what we fight for is directly in the interest of the majority?
I’m scared, send help and hugs
I think there is a bit of random chance to people developing or changing their worldview. And I definitely dont think it is a conscious, sovereign choice. I dont think you, or we, are crazy but some of us might be more unlikely than others. If you think about it, its pretty natural that a system like imperialism could produce genuine self hatred, even among those it enriches.
Oh, the ruling class are miserable self hating wretches for sure. Look at those mfers and tell me they are happy, loving, loved, and self actualized.