I’ve definitely been a mixture of 1 and 2. 1 would be used for the lesser, more common pains in life, and 2 to attempt to block out mental illness. This has not worked for me.

The dark tunnel analogy is very good. Sometimes the last thing I want to do is feel, but I think you’re definitely right. Poems and other art forms are wonderful.

My life has been materially easy, too. I’ve been in the battle with myself this entire time. Also, I wouldn’t call those things superficial at all - those are very real pains one feels, and just because it isn’t absolute desperation or extreme poverty doesn’t mean they aren’t valid.

Nah, comrade. That was very helpful. I’ll try that last one. Not rambling at all. Also, that poem was beautiful. Thanks again, friend