I’ve had a crush on a girl for months now. I don’t know why. I just saw her out of no where and thought, “she’s really pretty.” Now I notice her more than anyone else!! Help!!

I don’t want any crushes because I have important things to focus on, but I can’t help but think about her. I find myself fantasizing about hanging out with her and had many dreams about her. And the fact that we made eye contact quite a lot and her appearing out of no where in school did not help at all!!! 😭😭😭

I’ve tried not thinking about her, avoid seeing her, pretending I hate her, pretending she hates me, and even MANIFESTING my feelings to go away. (Which worked for three days 😥) I even tried looking at her more to desensitize myself!! Wanna know what made my feelings come back? The freaking eye contact!! As a loner, any attractive person giving me eye contact makes my heart jump. Especially her!!! And it’s really hard because love songs make me think about her 😭😭

Yeah yeah I know I should talk to her… but it’s hard to bring myself to :(( There’s so many issues. I’m introverted, and I would break down trying to talk to her. Her friends are not someone I would hang around, they kind of give toxic vibes, and I noticed myself being attracted to toxic type of girls, and it happened many times before. Maybe it’s because I come from a toxic household? I don’t know :(

Anyways

TL;DR I have a hopeless crush on someone, don’t want the feelings because I have more important things to tend to, but these feelings are getting in the way of my thinking and I just think I don’t need those feelings!! Help please 😥

I know I can’t run from feelings, I wish I could 😔 One day I think I’m close to the exit, and then boom, the exit pulls further away from me :(

  • @SunshinerOPM
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    2 years ago

    Thank you for the compliment comrade! You are also a cool communist! 😎

    You’re right about this. I may need to do some questioning. I can’t really think of what makes me like her. I have no choice but to get to know her, however I just don’t feel like it. I’m going down the “Give up route.” Therefore I’ll take your advice on mediation. It’s best for me to take in the feelings, let it pass by, and move on. I’ll eventually get over it like the other ones. I’m just surprised she’s the longest crush I’ve had. They usually last about a week to a month or two. Then again it’s only been six months, nothing to be surprised about.

    • @Samubai
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      12 years ago

      Yeah, I get it. I’ve had my share of helpless crushes lol