Hey Comrades,
With the current state of the world and general increase in negative feelings and emotions as a result of the current state of affairs, I wanted to start a community weekly vent post.
This will be for anything you need to talk about related to your mental health that is bothering you. If you feel overwhelmed, angry, scared, depressed, anxious, anything, write what you’re feeling and why below. Let’s use this as a place to help each other get through this awful shite.
It’s my birthday and i got really really sick unfortunately. Good news it’s not COVID, i got tested but it feels like i have it, I’m worried it’s undetected. I was looking forward to this week but I’m terribly sick and all I do in my life currently is work constantly, study at college, workout, and pay bills.
I’m exhausted, and i am hoping to get some rest. I live alone with my dog and I’m just very lonely quite honestly. I just miss being held. I try my best not to seek validation outside myself and my therapist has been trying to help me work on it but it’s very hard. I’ve been doing the same thing for 30 years, and it’s hard trying to shift my way of thinking. I sometimes feel after seeing everyone around me easily attract dates or falling in love that maybe I’m some sort of ogre. It’s hard not to feel that and I’m trying to build my self esteem better.
I’m 9 months without a drink tomorrow though. I still enjoy weed, and psychedelics once in a blue moon. My mental health has seen a significant increase without weekend binge drinking and escaping habitually.
I’m tired, lonely, and scared of the future.