Would you comrades say you’ve had a net positive or net negative relationship with drugs?
Personally, I’d say it’s nuanced and mixed. For example, psychedelics have given me some wonderful insight into beauty, gratitude for the world around me, and being open to newer ideas whilst alcohol has caused me to cancel out on work multiple times because of me overdoing it and my inability to stop when alone.
Psychs: Positive
Alcohol: Negative
Ketamine has given me wonderful insights into myself as well along with lasting anti-depressant effects comparable to no other drug, but also is very damaging over long term use and can create a reliance on it. Overall I’d say positive
DMT: Can’t say, haven’t “broken through”
Weed: Indifferent. Fun and relatively harmless depending on method of ingestion but can cause lack of motivation (at least in me)…
DXM: Mixture of alcohol and psychedelics. It fucks me up good and feels great while also giving me some psychedelic like experiences but is pretty bad for you and dangerous when combined with the wrong shit.
Benadryl: NEGATIVE NEGATIVE NEGATIVE
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LSD + psilo: based. I have mostly done them in social settings but have honestly had far more positive experiences doing them alone and being allowed to traverse the darkest thought loops I want. Usually considered a vibe-killer if I do that in the presence of others lol.
Alcohol: had some fun when I was younger, but I’m a very lovey and flirty drunk which has led to some mistakes (sleeping w/ people I wouldn’t have otherwise, flirting with friends). Drinking alone is a horrible idea, and I was a (dys)functional alcoholic in college. Used to be a crazy heavyweight, now a single beer gives me a headache and a buzz. Meds prolly.
DMT: fuckin’ incredible, I think I “broke through” but it was incredibly strange. It wasn’t like anything else, very little lasting impact on my psyche I think. It was like living a dream. It inspired me to paint right after though, a purple and green fractal nonsense piece. It was a wonderful experience. Dosage is annoying.
Weed: been using it for chronic pain. Abused it when I was younger, usually socially. Used to be a heavyweight there too, and I was the “weed guy” for a sec in college. Grav bongs and 500mg edibles. Now? I swear to god a single 2.5mg edible sends me to outer space. I don’t get it. I also am not a huge fan of the headspace as I become very self-conscious and self-depracating. The physical stuff feels ok but, maybe tmi, it makes me feel kinda like I’m shidding and pissing myself pretty often which is uncomfy. I’ve read that this is a semi-common experience… still weird. Honestly Delta8 is way better for me, I get more social and can maintain focus while also getting that body euphoria. Maybe placebo, but it works.
Benzos and painkillers: overrated as fuck. They can be fun to sn*rt with a friend while you’re already partying, but I couldn’t tell you how exactly they affected me, take it or leave it for me. I probably almost had a deadly overdose once mixing a bunch of shit, honestly. I forget sometimes because throwing up was so common during that time in my life, but from the cocktail I took it’s a miracle I’m alive. Be careful w/ em.
MDMA: meds fuck with it, even after a week+ break. Didn’t feel a damn thing, at most a low kratom high. Friends say it was like seeing heaven, I’m jealous lol
Kratom: Used to go crazy with this shit. Amazing for chronic pain at huge doses, but the euphoria can be overwhelming and nausea is a guarantee for a lot of people. Any time I use it now I keep the dose low and it’s just ok, makes my eyes kinda droopy though. Also absolutely obliterates libido if that matters.