A big welcome to each new member! Use this thread to introduce yourself, tell us about your struggle and your goals. May you find peace and serenity in your sobriety!

  • sky@codesink.io
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    8 months ago

    Hello y’all! I’m sky, and I decided to quit cannabis 3.5 weeks ago after smoking daily for 5 years or so.

    I’d become so lethargic and depressed and was just trying to avoid all of my emotions and problems by being stoned 100% of the time. I’ve been in therapy all year and decided to finally come clean to her about it, and she was nonjudgmental but encouraged me to really evaluate whether it was helping me. I knew it wasn’t.

    I’ve started some actual mental health medication, and that’s been so helpful. I’ve been able to go out with friends, have date nights with my wife, and started job hunting for the first time in years. There’s hard days where I really want to go smoke (my wife still does so it’s very accessable, unfortunately) like yesterday, but so far I’ve managed without.

    I don’t have many people to talk to about this that understand, so I was really excited to see this community started!

    • KvasiroftheWoodsOPM
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      8 months ago

      I understand right where you’re at. Before I got deep into my alcoholism I was a chronic daily MJ user for years. I’d smoke at least 3+ grams a day just to myself. It killed my drive to do anything constructive and even for things that were fun. I too, also started getting anxiety and was experiencing depersonalization/derealization which made the world weird and unsettling and gave me this overwhelming sense of approaching doom the majority of the time while high. It wasn’t until my fiance passed that I finally lost my predelection for pot, it just gave me too much anxiety, especially on top of the grief I was already going through.

      I’m glad you found us here. It’s not always easy but it gets easier and you’ll thank yourself for quitting down the line. Right now just yake it a day and step at a time, sometimes a moment at a time is how granular we have to get. However, if you’re truly commited and honest with yourself and give yourself patience and grace, you’ll make great strides.

      It’s good to have you here. I pray for many good days ahead for you.