I… Heh. 🥰 To seriously answer your question I guess early childhood socialization? Being naughty and then getting scolded and forced to fix it and learn my lesson was fun. And now that desire to be a brat has taken on new meaning.

I guess being forced to take my desires less seriously in the urgency or the anger of the situation can provide a bit of risk, danger, or shock. The idea that I can do my best and they will still be pissed regardless and treat me differently because of it is so much fun. And then, its kinky so there’s aftercare where the attitude drops and I’m given love.