I’m not that romantic image of an autistic person the media paints. I’m not a walking-talking mental calculator who can recite π to a 1000 places. I’m not “walking Wikipedia” as a classmate called me.

I might have a way with learning unnecessary things, but y’all know what? The NTs don’t care. A proper well-adjusted neurotypical adult is gonna win with me most of the time. Because while they can easily study the topic, I can’t exactly easily study being “normal”.

Autism is not that quirky thing like “Oh, I too might have autism because I like trains and hate people”. It’s an everyday struggle. A black pill I’m swallowing near every day, seeing how the deck was stacked against me from the start. Another job I feel stressed out at and on the verge of losing it. Sometimes I just can’t. Sometimes I wonder whether it’d be easier for me if I just did not have a diagnosis and just thought there is something wrong with my behavior and my parents…

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    4 years ago

    There is no “superpower” from being neurodiverse, but I do recognize that there are benefits to my extreme case of OCD (with Aspergers).

    That’s what I meant by “I might have a way with learning unnecessary things, but y’all know what? The NTs don’t care”. I might have some “positive quirks” but the bad outweighs the good

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      4 years ago

      I don’t think the “bad outweighs the good.” I think we’re kept down.

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        4 years ago

        We might be kept down by the shackles of capitalism, but there are some fairly objective things that also are pretty limiting, eg. sensory stuff.

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            4 years ago

            Well, that’s what neurodiversity is about, that we all have different experiences.

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              4 years ago

              We have a diversity of perks as well. The problem is that we’re mostly accommodating NTs and nobody accommodates us in return.