Even despite the age gap, this was the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in. It was based on mutual respect, trust, communication, and an understanding of each other’s time and goals. I really like her as a person – she’s wonderful. But I also think we’re just not the right fit for each other romantically or sexually, and I’ve slowly begun to realize this over the last few weeks.
A couple of nights ago, I broached the subject and mentioned our sex drives were not super aligned. Mine is much higher than hers, and we both acknowledged neither one of us expected the other to change nor did we pretend it was even possible. She took it very hard, though, and spent about 2 hours crying on my couch while we talked.
We didn’t officially break up, and I know she wants to continue trying. I think she believes I am the one for her, and while she is a wonderful person, she just isn’t the right one for me specifically. How should I go about doing this? I had been hoping the conversation would have led us to that conclusion, but I couldn’t find the guts to end it then, especially because we went from joking around and laughing together that exact night like nothing was wrong to her crying in my arms on the couch.
I feel like I’m setting her up for heartbreak, but I know it’s not fair to either of us to continue in something that I am not long-term invested in.
We’ve talked about it before, and she’s told me that I am the best sexual partner she has ever had. To her, she is very satisfied. I’m very giving in bed (it helps I enjoy going down), and foreplay is always a long part of it. Sometimes hours before we actually have sex. The issue is that I am not satisfied, and she is. I have never once reached orgasm with her, as she finds PIV sex painful due to my size and is generally not a giving partner. She has given me oral maybe 4 times total in 6 months. So I guess now that I think about it, it’s not just frequency but sexual satisfaction during the act as well, on my end.