finally got antibiotics after 6 months of waiting.

a little before a week done, a little over a week left to do.

they’re kicking my ass lol, im practically a half-zombie. even caffeine is not helping. can barely do or think anything, i feel like im half-awake the entire time. they’ve also messed up my sleep schedule, i can’t even sleep at night and go to bed at around 6am. i decided i wouldn’t sweat it too much and just turned off my alarm clock so i could still get sleep in, im already kicked down enough lol.

whats weird is before i got sick in 2024 with an unprovoked PE i had no health problems, and tolerated medication perfectly. it was after the PE that I suddenly could not handle medication anymore.

when we were trying different thinners i had to stop one after a few days because i could not even eat anything while on it. the one im on is the one i tolerate the most. but that’s the thing, i don’t think my body randomly doesn’t like thinners because all of them were a different molecule entirely. and the PE is still unprovoked, meaning they couldn’t find the cause.

same when i was on a neuromodulator a few months ago - i stopped after 2 weeks because not only was it not helping my disability symptoms, it was also messing me up during the day and broke my circadian rhythm.

none of this ever used to happen before i got sick.

at least the problem the antibiotics are treating was diagnosed and does exist, it’s not another shot in the dark like the other medication we tried, so that gets taken care of. and it’s only 1 more week 🫠