The Ten Largest, No. 2

The Ten Largest Painting Series
Hilma af Klint was a Swedish abstract artist who was way ahead of her time. She might just be the first abstract painter in Western modern art history but did not get recognition until just recently. Lately, there have been several exhibitions of her work; for example, at Moderna Museet in Stockholm and Malmö, Sweden. Hilma af Klint’s The Ten Largest is iconic and has lately been shown all over the world, most notably at Tate Modern in London and a couple of years ago at Guggenheim Museum in New York. It is one of her most important works, and the large scale of the paintings is quite striking.
Hilma af Klint (1862–1944) started as a landscape and portrait painter after graduating from the Royal Academy of Fine Arts in Stockholm in 1887. During her career, she also had an interest in the spiritual world—an interest she later employed in her art. According to the artist, she received messages from the spirits telling her what and how to paint.
The Ten Largest is a group of works comprising ten 10,76 x 7,87 ft (328 x 240 cm) egg tempera paintings. The paintings depict the spiritual evolution of humans, taking us from childhood, through youth, and adulthood to old age. Let’s take a closer look at the history and the meaning of The Ten Largest!
History of the Paintings
Hilma af Klint took precise notes on her work with The Ten Largest, and therefore we know a lot of the meaning and how to understand the paintings through her notebooks. The Ten Largest is part of a larger series of artwork called Paintings for the Temple, a series she was assigned from the spiritual world. We know, from Hilma af Klint’s notes, that there were more spirits involved in the assignment, whom she called “The High Masters.” She saw herself as a channel between the spiritual world and this world.
Af Klint painted The Ten Largest during a 40-day period in 1907, and the spirits were very specific with the timeline. They told her to paint each painting in four days, following each other, which she completed with help from at least two friends. She created the paintings swiftly and spontaneously, with little planning. She completed the whole series in 40 days.
The Meaning
The paintings depict the evolution of human consciousness and the spiritual evolution of the human mind. Each painting should be interpreted as a phase in life. Hilma af Klint was very interested in spiritualism, which was not uncommon in the early 20th century, especially in the cultural circles. The paintings were supposed to give humanity images of life beyond everything, which were not visible otherwise. However, when Hilma af Klint searched for a suitable place to exhibit and show the world these beautiful abstract paintings, she did so in vain. In 1932 she decided that since the world was not ready to take part in and understand the spiritual messages in her paintings, most of her artwork and her notebooks were to be kept from the public for 20 years.
Childhood
Ten Largest No.1
The two first paintings in the series represent childhood. These two works have a blue background. They also depict Hilma af Klint’s fascination with duality. She described in her notebooks two principles in the spiritual world. These principals were not to be understood as opposites but as something forming a whole together. In these paintings describing childhood, we see a lot of individual shapes forming pairs. According to the artist herself, the lily and the color blue represented the feminine principle, and the rose and the color yellow symbolized the masculine principle. We can see a lot of organic forms and shapes in all of The Ten Largest. Furthermore, in the paintings representing childhood, we see a lot of forms associated with plants and vegetation.
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I hope this is allowed to post on a mega thread but does anyone have recommendations for window AC units? I’m willing to spend up to $400 because summer is absolutely miserable in humid and hot as fuck Wisconsin. Whatever will keep my room the coolest, reduces humidity, lasts decently long, and isn’t super loud. Thanks, sorry this isn’t super related to this thread (although I am trans lol)
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Ive had a vagina for a month now and I gotta say, I love it very much ♡
it rules, doesn’t it?
Just figured out my parents were hiding my girly cloths from me. I can’t wait to move out.
Wtf that’s evil… Do you have a safe place to put them where they can’t find them?
It is honestly unbelievable to me I have tiny little tits. Like they’re only noticeable with my shirt off, but still how wild is that? I can’t believe it. Its so weird and a little freaky.
It kinda makes me want to pause hrt and see how things are, idk its so scary. Its freaky. I don’t know.
Firstly, if you want to stop you can. You dont need to take HRT to be a woman, you dont need boobs to be a woman
Secondly, I think what’s got you feeling anxious and freaky is that changes are happening visibly and youre worried about people noticing. Rest assured, you can hide those for a while. In fact, Im sure soon enough youll be wishing people noticed more.
What do you think is making you want to pause HRT? Breast growth isnt really reversible, are you feeling anxious about that?
I kinda do, being out to select people as a woman is okay I guess, but I am not willing/okay with being out to everyone without hrt.
That’s the big thing yea. People noticing. Having to be out, especially before I’m ready. idk how long it will take before I’m ready to be out. I mean thick shirts/sweatshirts if weather permits, I worry about wearing bralettes/sports bras imprinting and the bra being visible. Like that doesn’t help me hide if that’s visible you know.
Being closeted longer I guess. It not being reversible is freaky too yea, like they’re just there now. Every time I take my shirt off and look they’re there… and obviously going to be getting more noticeable and its freaky.
Also being out with no voice training/laser is freaky. If I sounded okay I’d be more comfortable. If shaving was easier/I was happier on that front it would be easier too.
I’ve learned that while imprinting is a thing, it can be avoided with a thin layer. T shirts will show when tight or bending over, but a flannel on top obscures it (while also making you look lesbian :))
That’s the big thing yea. People noticing. Having to be out, especially before I’m ready. idk how long it will take before I’m ready to be out. I mean thick shirts/sweatshirts if weather permits, I worry about wearing bralettes/sports bras imprinting and the bra being visible. Like that doesn’t help me hide if that’s visible you know.
I’m nearly 2 years into HRT and I’m still not ready to be out 🤷♀️ Fortunately people are still oblivious or don’t want to say anything, which are basically the same for me. I don’t do jackets/hoodies except if I want it specifically for the warmth.
I’m in a somewhat similar situation, but there’s no way in hell, heaven or purgatory I’ll willingly stop hrt. I would do anything before stopping the only thing that made me feel less like I have no hope of ever being satisfied with my own body.
Yea it is, I know its my only hope. I don’t “want” to stop, I am just freaking out about it lately.
It’s okay to feel like that. What makes us feel uncomfortable is never just us, but other people and society too.
I felt the same way upon having that realization. I think part of it is the shock that comes from noticing changes in your body that you’re actually present for but idk. Change is scary even if you’re at the stage you’re at, it can get easier to deal with, but it’s always scary.
For what it’s worth, I feel really happy about my breast growth now! That panic went away pretty quickly and hasn’t come back.
That same anxiety is part of what’s got me on pause right now as well, so you’re definitely not alone in this.
Thank god the gossip wasn’t me being trans
People are talking about my boss dating this guy in another department. She’s insistent they aren’t. She did let it slip they both like each other (and they’re going out together). Totally not dating though. Whole thing is very funny to me.
“wearing a baggy shirt and a sports bra and hoping it’s enough to hide the boobs I’ve grown myself in the past couple of years” has got to be one of my favorite genders
but unironically, I want people to question whether I’m transfem or transmasc or try to parse my gender, because the answer may shock you
Are you … shapeshiftdr??d

I'm better

p.s. I wish I could shapeshift, would make things a lot easier
Same. Straight up my favorite power to fantasise about.
Same, but also not wanting to deal with people at my work figuring out I’m not cis. Sometimes the shirts aren’t even baggy, so I’m just hoping I pass as being overweight enough to justify my boobs those days.
I don’t like the way my dog looks at me when I’m naked. She looks almost concerned or scornful, like “What the fuck is this, Carch? Where are your clothes??” And I’m just like, “omg you’re a fucking dog, where are YOUR clothes?? How dare you judge me!” But seriously. How dare she judge me like that.
Your dog tragically cant put its own clothes on, which perhaps your dog was expressing solidarity - “yeah my master never dresses me either and it looks like yours has stopped”
Woman at my work (another dept) noticed how long my hair has been getting, feels good. Overall pretty happy with my hair

Yay I absolutely love those interactions! I lived for them when I was boymoding especially
Had a lovely conversation with a girl I’ve kinda got a crush on at work. I love talking to her, I feel like I’m much wittier and cooler than I normally am, it all just flows much easier. We’re wrapping up and she says that I “lifted her spirits, as usual” which feels great! But then right at the end she says “Yessir”… Two minutes later I’ve got tears in my eyes in my cubicle. I think my tolerance for boymoding is breaking down…
Its really frustrating for me when people ask for hrt advice but then don’t want to help the people helping them at all. Why ask for advice and then say “oh I’m getting blood tests done when my doc recommends” “my levels are good”. Give us the actual information please!
Weekly valerate victim ^ She’s 100% not getting the actual trough, levels are almost certainly too low at the end of her cycle (complaining about feeling terrible the last 2 days), but I’ll never know for sure! Why ask for advice and help and then defer to “my doc knows better”? Its just so frustrating. We know the issue, how to confirm it and fix but the person asking for help apparently doesn’t want it. And its such an easy thing to fix! There’s a lot of things that are super hard to fix, but getting blood draws at the actual low and proper E dosing are both so easy and so important. idk I feel bad complaining about it, it doesn’t really effect me.
Its frustrating in medicine and healthcare in general because you can explain shit to a patient and they mightve heard something else completely or not thought to bring it up in their history nevermind people who just arent compliant with medications or diet or PT 😭 - at least in the official healthcare system, I do get some people have a lot of anxiety around it and some have actual trauma from bad experiences or historical familial teauma.
The first time I was doing a medicine history with someone and they didnt know why they took what they took was shocking. But some people just trust their doctors and pharmacists or worse trust what they thought the professionals said which sucks for miscommunication and med errors. I had one chemo patient take his prep meds every day between cycles, which includes Zofran. The poor guy got headaches and constipation from too much Zofran all because he thought you had to take it every day instead of cycle day or the day before cycle day.
After I dyed my hair I became less like the spitting image of
and it’s sad. The bright side is I’m cute tho 
weird kink talk
i just ruined my mental health for the last 3 odd months because a pretty t girl with an incest kink wanted me to call her sis and i got so emotionally invested in her that i started actually caring for her like a sis until the emotional weight of trying to care for 2 mentally ill t girls broke me
in the aftermath of that messy of a break up where i learned i apparently have an incest kink, i’ve come to realize that kink is some potent shit but i should still play around with it so I’ve decided to go all in on the doggirl stuff. i’ve been cooking up a recipe in my head that’s basically just soya chunks that look like dog food. i have no idea why doing this is making me feel good inside but it is so fuck it, i need the mental health boost
If you find kink so potent of a drug I’d be cautious
Fair. I was totally sucked into it last time until it burnt me out, I should be careful doing it again
I think this has more to do with her proverbially burning herself to keep 2 others warm rather than kink and shed perhaps be liable to do it even with vanilla relationships


















