The goal of this post is to function as a vent post. Tell us what’s on your mind, yell, post pics, do whatever to clear your mind.
So yesterday my father in law and I went to this lake for a morning swim. It was 8 degrees celsius (46F) outside, the water was probably of a similar temperature. There were a few fishermen walking around in special wetsuits as to not get hypothermia and they were staring in disbelief at two guys walking into the water in underwear.
It was cold as fuck to the point that the cold water did nothing but hurt my skin. I swam for around ten minutes I think and the entire time I kept thinking: why would anyone do this? Why do humans feel the need to go to great lengths to do stupid shit like this? Surely it has to be more than just adrenaline.
Did I enjoy swimming in cold water? I don’t know. It made feel alive-ish. Would I do it again? It does have a certain lure to it.
It did make me think about people bragging about ‘suffering’. For example, my gf and I want to try to keep the heating off until at least the 21st of December, because shit is expensive yo. But when someone mentions that they already have the heating on, I start feeling proud of myself in a way. Because I don’t have the heating on yet, and I’m fine. Money is not even what I think about then, just that I am able to tolerate more cold or something stupid like that. I have no idea why I do that. It’s completely in line with my ideology and party work. But it still happens. Why do humans do this?
Also: FUCK CAPITALISM
Just learned my gov’ment is looking to declare me disabled (cfd/me), and… I’m conflicted.
At the least, it’ll guarantee me some income for the rest of my life, but… I’ve always worked when able, and to be “not able” forever more is quite hard to come to grips with.
Got a couple of medical interviews before the process wraps up, but this isn’t what I expected when I asked my doc (18 months ago) to figure why I’m always exhausted :/
As someone with ME, I know it can be really hard to deal with this disease and your new reality. It probably won’t be easy, but you’ll learn to live within your energy envelope with pacing.
I hope you’ll get a reasonable income and good support from friends and family! And I’m sure the comrades here on the 'grad will be here for support if you need it 🫂
Thanks Tito, appreciate the comment <3
Financially, I’ll be able to set aside ~5000 NOK (~500US) a month so thankfully that part should work out well enough. Local support will be interesting though, as right before covid we moved to a part of the country where we didn’t know anyone heh. We’ll be fine though, there are lots of worse countries than Norway to have this in.