I’ve probably tripped around 20 times throughout my life. I did it mostly because I bought into the idea that psychedelics would improve my life and habits in some way. I don’t believe that anymore, and I don’t think psychs really changed my life at all except it gave me lots of cool memories. I kind of feel some level of nostalgia for that reality-bending feeling of being on psychs, even though the last time I took it was only a couple months ago. It’s just so different from everyday experience.
I’ve tripped a bunch and I believe that doing so has had a pretty drastic influence on who I am today.
First off, I want to say that psychedelics aren’t for everyone. If you have a serious psychological or personality disorder like schizophrenia or BPB, you should probably avoid psychedelics. Feel free to do your own research, but my understanding is that doing so can result in some pretty negative consequences.
Second, if you do decide that you want to try psychedelics, make sure that you’re in a good headspace to do so. It won’t guarantee that you’ll have a good trip, but the inverse will almost certainly lead to a bad trip.
I had my first real psychedelic trip in my early twenties. This would have been about a year or so after moving out on my own. I won’t go into details about my time living at home, but to say that it was traumatic doesn’t quite do it justice.
I don’t think I was a very good person. My entire childhood was focused on my own self preservation. I didn’t have anyone looking out for me so I had no choice but to look after myself. Ultimately, this lead to early adult me being incredibly self absorbed. I couldn’t commit to anything or anyone. I couldn’t trust anyone.
This is not the person that I see when I look in the mirror today. That first mushroom trip unlocked my ability to see the world in colour. Before, everything was in black and white. I don’t think that I would be posting on here without my experiences with psychedelics. I don’t think that I would be a communist.
Around that time, I experimented with mushrooms and acid a lot. I had the odd bad trip, but even then, I would learn something about myself that I could take with me into sobriety.
I’ve been microdosing mushrooms for the past 2 years. It’s helped me to work on a lot of internalized trauma and has had a positive affect on some of my more minor ADHD symptoms. I’m currently on a break and I’m happy to say that I’m doing a lot better than the last break that I took. If this keeps up, I may not go back to it.
I’ll wrap it up here. Describing the effects of psychedelics to people who have never done them is honestly harder than explaining communism to some random groiped up shawty on the internet. I’m happy to answer any questions though!