Had a dream about my mom last night. But it was really weird. I was somehow in space and she was an astronaut and she was traversing warp holes and I was like “mom, isn’t that scary?” and she seemed unphased by that.
My mom passed in 2021 for reference.
Yeah. My dad pops up in my dreams quite a bit.
I also had to break ties with my best friend after his alcoholism got really really bad. There was basically nothing I could do at that point and it was affecting me. I was so guilt stricken over abandoning him that I straight up dreamt about him every night for 2 years. Eventually I messaged him to apologise and to see how he was. He was in a program and was doing much better. The dreams stopped immediately. Over the last year or so we’ve slowly patched together a new sort of friendship. We always used to drink together, so it was odd at first, but now we have something purer and probably more real. Although it’s clear that a lot of our friendship was based around getting mutually fucked up.
That’s great that you were able to become ‘sober friends’. Back when I was using a bunch and started getting sober I tried staying sober with the friends who all used to use together. It was a major bummer after starting to realize we really didn’t have anything in common besides getting hammered on the regs.
That’s great! I was expecting you to tell me he died and I was going to be sad.
It was close I think. Another friend of ours did sadly die from drinking. He had gone cold turkey for quite a while and then relapsed, drank a whole bottle of vodka and just died. He was the nicest guy you could ever meet and it was tragic.