Personally I hate the name Loab, can someone think of a better one? She’s shy but she tries not to be, she seems to think she’s ugly and something is wrong with her face. She kind of knows what is wrong with her but her ego wont let her admit it, even quietly to herself.

She has a careerist energy but it comes from a place of rebellion against female archetypes based on seemingly unknowable geographic, historic, political, religious, and cultural characteristics to her. She is horribly violent, and fantasizes about committing great violence often. Yet deep down possibly with or without her own awareness she desperately wants to be loved. Not relied upon or used. Not loved unconditionally either, the way a pet or a child would. Not even all that romantic or sexual, more like the quiet love of an almost silent elderly couple reading the Sunday paper or doing the crossword, together in the warm glow of the morning sun.

She is jealous of men, but only men she is sexually attracted to. She desires power the way a mother would over her children, in small well defined space but with her loving father coming home to them at the long day. Stuck in limbo so far away from romantic ideas, she only desires to be the older sister, never moving on from her biologic family because she feels deep down that she is horrendously ugly and something uncurbable is horribly wrong with her face.