if you’re sure about it

Honestly idk. I hate how my face looks with facial hair but:

• I enjoy shaving my face (when I’m not too depressed to do it). It brings me some odd sense of peace.
• I love how my face looks like with shaving foam applied.
• I like how when I get too depressed to shave, the hair growing out adds to the sense of depression and how bad I look at the time.

but also

• I will never afford it.