[CW: Transphobia]

As a non-binary person, I now have to operate under the assumption that any trans person I meet has a good chance of hating my guts simply because of my gender identity (ironic). I really fucking hate that I cannot undo this mindset because of how common transmedicalism and enbyphobia in the trans community has become.

I can’t even see a post on social media that says something like “Trans Rights!!!” and not feel uncomfortable because my initial reaction has become “Does that include me, though? Do you support my rights?”. I will always identify as trans, but I’m heavily frightened by the possibility that transphobic attacks I experience are not just gonna be from mostly cis people.

Now, at every fucking turn, I have to ponder if I belong in any trans spaces or not. After going through harsh amounts of abusive transphobia from cis people, having trans people go out of their way to exclude me has done more to make me feel alone than anything else, and it’s absolutely not what I need right now.

    • Angel [any]@hexbear.netOPM
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      7 months ago

      And I thank you for being so vigilant in fighting against exclusion, bigotry, and hate within our community. It really makes me sad that the notion of a trans community, especially an online one, being universally opposed to transmedicalism seems so rare to me.

      • LeylaLove [she/her, love/loves]@hexbear.netM
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        7 months ago

        We appreciate it. This isn’t even something that any of the mods on the team even felt the need to discuss in our Matrix chat, every mod responding to this is responding individually. We’re just against transmedicalism on here because the only logical conclusion of transmedicalism is “don’t come out until you fully know yourself (you will never fully know yourself) and have thousands of dollars to spend on surgery”. It’s inherently a bad idea.

        You know what I use as my “hormone meds” right now? An anti-psychotic that kills T production and gives me a minor boost in estrogen and progesterone, but nothing major, just enough to keep me from losing it. We all have shit that could be used to invalidate our identity as trans people, but isn’t getting over that the whole point of the trans journey? To get over ourselves and our own physical/mental limitations that keep us from fully being ourselves. The idea of giving two shits about someone’s medical history for no good reason is ridiculous.