I’ve been helplessly struggling with intrusive thoughts since as long I can remember. They were hard to explain. They got more drastic since the start of my teen years and gets bad to the point they make me want to commit suicide.

They ruin about everything. Things I love, critical thinking, my perception of reality, my sanity, and my mental health.

I rarely tell people because I was afraid that they were going to give me very dull advice. And it was months ago when I finally found the actual term for these thoughts. Right now my mind feels numb and worn out. (Probably gonna edit this later.)

  • Soviet Pigeon
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    6 months ago

    and gets bad to the point they make me want to commit suicide.

    I don’t know where you live, if you have to pay for a doctor’s visit, or if there are things that make a visit impossible, but it would probably be best to do so. What have you already done and tried? Intrusive thoughts have a huge impact on quality of life. They can be a symptom of depression, anxiety, PTSD and so on.

    Have you ever felt something like dissociation or depersonalisation?