4chan:

if you don’t leave that hellsite you’ll end up being a self hating dork like ContraPoints

pls don’t be like ContraPoints

Hey, can you make this post NSFW? Sending you strength though, it’s hard to get out of a hole like this.

Rule 7: Posts about dysphoria/trauma/transphobia should be NSFW tagged for community health purposes.

Edit: this has gone unresolved for a couple hours, locking this post but message me or any of the other mods when you NSFW it, I think you’ve already got a lot of good responses here

I never used TTTT, but I used to read TGCJ religiously, which I understand has some cultural overlap with TTTT… I stopped reading TGCJ almost immediately upon joining the fediverse. Even after revisiting TGCJ several times recently, I’m always left thinking, “…I used to like this?”, and close the tab after like three posts.

For me, what I liked about TGCJ was that it was a place to vent, a place to tell jokes of often dubious taste, a place to find community, a place that was leftist and tolerant of xenogenders… But when I could find all of those things in places like Hexbear instead, I started to see TGCJ for what it was when one takes all those positive facets away.

So I guess for you, what I’d recommend is figuring out what TTTT means to you, and seeing if you can find those same things in places that are better for your mental health. Maybe find some way to block access to TTTT, at least temporarily.

Around the time I started hrt I was really into that place. That was a very bad time to be exposed to all the brainworms, and it definitely did harm to my mental health. I haven’t been back in ages though, and it doesn’t really interest me anymore. I think what happened is that I just got busy with other parts of my life. Like I went back to school, got really into fitness, made actual progress with my transition. When I had more going on, rotting on 4chan had less appeal. Also, something that really helps is having irl trans friends who understand a bit about that space and wont mind if you talk about it. I don’t have as many trans friends as I would like, but at least I have a few now, and it makes it so much better.

For what it’s worth, if you spend enough time on /tttt/ spaces you notice that most of the girls who actually take hormones and work on transitioning will eventually start feeling better about themselves and leave. It’s really sort of like baby trans holding zone or gender purgatory. If it would help I’m happy to talk about more specific /tttt/ stuff (I try not to do that here generally), but anyway I’m sorry that you’re having a bad time with it right now. Things really do get better.

I’ve only just realised I’ve not looked at my trans reddit account and gotten sad that i’ll never be pretty in about three months, wow, thanks for shutting me out reddit, doing my a favour

used to browse it every day when i started my e. after a while i got busy with work, studies, and just other interests. now especially im more interested in the news and catching up on theory, and if it’s a slow day i might have a glance at the top posts, but it’s like a zoo now. I see all the nifty stuff, laugh a little bit, at the larps that are intended for sh and eventually just close the tab

I actually just went cold turkey. It was kind of hard, but filling in the gap with like, queer discord spaces that didn’t totally suck was helpful. I also found it useful when every time I’d have a negative or selfhatey thought, I’d make sure to very actively rebuke it with the opposite, trans-positive logic.

Also may I recommend some reading? This is my bit now, but I’d recommend Gender Outlaw by Kate Bornstein and Whipping Girl by Julia Serano to get some trans related goodthink into your brain. I could have used both these books in highschool; nowadays if I slide into /tttt/, all I see is sad and brainwormed people who have fallen into a void.

/tttt/ is the ultimate evil for online trans people, I’m pretty sure. Stay strong.

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I was a part of toxic spaces that weren’t tttt, and i ditched them by just getting too busy, forgetting about them, and then just realizing I didn’t need them.

Focus less on removing the bad thing, and instead try to fill your life with actual, real life, positive things. If you just get rid of the bad thing, you’ll feel the void. If you’re just too busy, you won’t even notice.

Also, make a commitment to yourself in the meantime to make every single post you make there dedicated to calling out the self harm there. That will make it less fun for you and easier to forget.

I suggest setting up an app like ‘cold turkey’ that lets you block specific websites globally on your devices. But make it with just like a 15 character random text entry bypass. That way when the urge gets really strong, you don’t disable the whole app but instead just have a minute of reflection before being inundated with awful, violent posts.

I have not much to say except wishing you strength and endurance for this. Bad places are hard to leave sometimes. You don’t deserve self-abuse.