If I just happen to hurt people, especially those I love, real hard, why shouldn’t I just kill myself then?

  • TheLemming@feddit.deOP
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    9 months ago

    Well I’m causing a lot of grief by trying to heal and struggling through the emotional&mental confusion I have from past things, and I’m hurting them because I’m doubting them, and it feels so horrible to me to experience myself that way so that I think/feel How dare you u/TheLemming, that you don't trust those exact people that already invested so much effort into you!?!! How Dare You!!

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      9 months ago

      Hypothetically, if someone asked you how they could earn your trust fair and square, what would you say to them?

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        9 months ago

        Maybe with

        Well then please give me the chance to doubt you, please allow me to doubt you, … for three months. To learn through your consistency that I’m in a different world now! Please. I need it ❤️

        It’s a tough question, honestly… I don’t know how to answer it actually 😭

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        shit’s too real

        If I doubted them, that behavior is unacceptable to me. Like, right a couple of hours ago - I thought how could I doubt them, what kind of … who’d do such an “evil” thing?! maybe they do have my trust already, otherwise I wouldn’t try to process my trauma with them 🙈 I can’t stand myself causing even the littlest annoyance in anyone’s world