Edit: Im asking because I’m currently going through some serious depression and I’ve been forgetting stuff lately. I wake up every morning with a panic attack, I am too tired to do anything. I barely had any appetite to eat. I just wanted to see if I’m the only one. Hearing stories from others makes me feel less alone.

Sorry if I sound pathetic af, I’m just sad

Edit 2: I’m gonna mark this as NSFW because the potential very traumatic stuff.

  • AstralWeekends@lemm.ee
    17·
    11 months ago
    • The night I had to put down my cat (he was the best boy).
    • Dealing with the aftermath of a family member’s suicide.
    • The day my twin first moved far away from me.
    • The death of my grandmother.
    • The time I was hospitalized against my will for a mental health issue.
    • The first panic attack I experienced and the subsequent fallout.

    All said, I have lived a pretty lucky life and am a successful person (by my account). But even so, life is full of this type of stuff for pretty much everyone. Fun question, OP!

    • cubedsteaks@lemmy.today
      5·
      11 months ago

      The night I had to put down my cat (he was the best boy).

      It’s always so terrible to lose a pet. I love my cat so much, I try not to think about the day I know is gonna come.

      • AstralWeekends@lemm.ee
        2·
        11 months ago

        It really is gut-wrenchingly hard! I have lots of good mementos of him and (sorry if this is creepy) have kept his ashes. I went on a months-long roadtrip/move earlier this year and his urn was along for the ride. He hated the car, lol.

    • WtfEvenIsExistence2️@sopuli.xyzOPEnglish
      3·
      11 months ago

      The time I was hospitalized against my will for a mental health issue.

      Jeez 😟

      If you don’t mind, can you elaborate. Like… is it as bad as depicted in movies? Like does the staff abuse patients? I feel like those places are literally torture chambers… and for me, that’s worse than death. I’m always afraid to end up in those places. 😬

      • AstralWeekends@lemm.ee
        3·
        11 months ago

        In my case, I only stayed for one night and left the next day. It was an acute ward, meaning that it was intended for people having immediate mental health crisis. The hospital and staff were all fine. I had gone in for an evaluation at my doctor’s recommendation in the morning. I spoke with a doctor there, who brought a police officer into the room at the end of our conversation, who told me I could either check myself into the hospital or spend the night in jail. I opted for the more comfortable of the two options. To be released the next day, I had to convince the doctors that I wasn’t an active threat to myself or others.

        The experience overall did further damage to my mental health and trust in the medical system. At the time, I was having thoughts of suicide without the intention of acting on them; they were just becoming more intrusive. I was honest about this with the hospital staff and I believe now that was a mistake. This was many years ago and I am in a healthier place these days, but it took awhile to get here and I doubt I’ll ever speak as honestly with a mental health professional again.

        • WtfEvenIsExistence2️@sopuli.xyzOPEnglish
          1·
          11 months ago

          I spoke with a doctor there, who brought a police officer into the room at the end of our conversation, who told me I could either check myself into the hospital or spend the night in jail.

          Excuse me what the fuck? Being depressed is a crime now? 😟 What country is this?

          I feel so sorry that you had to go through this. 😔

          • AstralWeekends@lemm.ee
            2·
            11 months ago

            Indeed, was quite a shock! This was in the US, state of Nebraska, about 15 years ago.

            Thanks for the kind words. 0/10 experience, do not recommend.