• maaj@lemmy.ca
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    11 months ago

    I don’t want to anymore, but I’ve wanted to a lot in the past. Even now I wouldn’t mind having a “go bag” of sorts just in case society gets too shitty, but my parents would have to had passed on already. I definitely can’t go before them, I have to make sure to take care of them when they get elderly. And no, I don’t mean “take care of them” lmao

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      11 months ago

      I feel that. I have bouts of really strong suicidal ideation once or twice a year that last 3-4 weeks. Been that way since ~2018. Ngl it’s harder and harder every time one of those moods come around. The only reason I’m still here is because of my parents, wife and cats. Hopefully that continues to be a good enough reason because god knows I can’t afford a psychiatrist, therapist, or meds