Oh don’t be so hard on yourself, literary analysis is hard and you tend to do a good job at it from what I’ve read in your postings here over the months I’ve been active. Sometimes a particular take just doesn’t click for you when it does for other people. But that reading of Badeline you just described is basically exactly how most people read her prior to the writer’s transition, including the writer herself. (At least from my cursory understanding when the game came out, I never got around to playing it until years later)
VN talk
The VN I was talking about was The House in Fata Morgana. Misery porn was definitely an exaggeration, the VN as a whole is basically a series of tragedies that all relate to eachother as a larger supernatural mystery that gradually gets revealed. It’s very theatrical, very pretty, and has an incredible OST. Seriously even if you don’t read it listen to a couple of tracks sometime. The entire VN is incredible, I adore it.
It’s honestly not really a trans narrative at all though, only one of the tragedies is, and even then the main character of that section is actually intersex (although you can read him as both, I certainly do (and I think that’s the intent too)). Despite that I still feel and read it as a trans narrative. I just relate to him on an incredibly deep level, more than basically any other character in fiction. I should also clarify that most of the suffering isn’t stuff that the character feels so much as other people being abusive to him.
Which is why my life mirroring his is a bit worrying since I read this VN before my egg cracked and the abuse I’ve gotten, particularly around October to November when I was kicked out is… Distressingly similar. I’m actually a bit afraid to reread it rn if I’m being honest.
I know I’m being very vague but I love it so much and don’t want to really spoil it
Well thank you, I like to think I’m okay at it sometimes lol. At least I’m not totally offbase with that… You can always read Badeline equally as being a manifestation of anxiety about transition, which is fun!
VN talk!!!
Woah no fucking way, I have never once heard of this!!! That sounds kinda rad honestly, I might have to poke it at some point. I will admit that queer characters getting abused unendingly by cishets in fiction is one of my big pet peeves, but I’ve read stuff featuring that and gotten along with it before, so yooooo!
That is distressing, sorry to hear you were kicked out easily one of the shittiest things… Hopefully it’s less distressing when next you go back to it
That’s great that you seem interested in it! The endless abuse is luckily not the only thing going on with that character, and the chapter which focuses on that aspect is one of the shorter ones overall with it only coming into play halfway through so it’s also relatively brief. If you want any extra content warnings don’t hesitate to ask, since there are a few other ones due to its nature as tragedy. If you do read it please don’t hesitate to message me about it since I don’t have a ton of people to discuss it with and I would love to get to yap about it in more detail for once!
And thank you for the concern.
I haven’t been updating here as much as I could about my situation since the first month but I’ve been doing much much better and have mostly stabilised since then, both emotionally and economically. I’m also just much happier now that I get to be myself and not repress myself as much anymore.
You can bet when I pick it up I’ll be sure to post about it Oh fucking shit this has a PS Vita version? I should fucking dust off my Vita for this!!! Yoooooooooooooooo!!!
I expect it to be sufficiently traumatic but I’m kinda ready for it. Readying the hype train.
And ofc Glad to hear the good news, and that you’re in a better place after all of that. Love to see it
Literary analysis talk
Oh don’t be so hard on yourself, literary analysis is hard and you tend to do a good job at it from what I’ve read in your postings here over the months I’ve been active. Sometimes a particular take just doesn’t click for you when it does for other people. But that reading of Badeline you just described is basically exactly how most people read her prior to the writer’s transition, including the writer herself. (At least from my cursory understanding when the game came out, I never got around to playing it until years later)
VN talk
The VN I was talking about was The House in Fata Morgana. Misery porn was definitely an exaggeration, the VN as a whole is basically a series of tragedies that all relate to eachother as a larger supernatural mystery that gradually gets revealed. It’s very theatrical, very pretty, and has an incredible OST. Seriously even if you don’t read it listen to a couple of tracks sometime. The entire VN is incredible, I adore it.
It’s honestly not really a trans narrative at all though, only one of the tragedies is, and even then the main character of that section is actually intersex (although you can read him as both, I certainly do (and I think that’s the intent too)). Despite that I still feel and read it as a trans narrative. I just relate to him on an incredibly deep level, more than basically any other character in fiction. I should also clarify that most of the suffering isn’t stuff that the character feels so much as other people being abusive to him.
Which is why my life mirroring his is a bit worrying since I read this VN before my egg cracked and the abuse I’ve gotten, particularly around October to November when I was kicked out is… Distressingly similar. I’m actually a bit afraid to reread it rn if I’m being honest.
I know I’m being very vague but I love it so much and don’t want to really spoil it
o boi literary analsis!
Well thank you, I like to think I’m okay at it sometimes lol. At least I’m not totally offbase with that… You can always read Badeline equally as being a manifestation of anxiety about transition, which is fun!
VN talk!!!
Woah no fucking way, I have never once heard of this!!! That sounds kinda rad honestly, I might have to poke it at some point. I will admit that queer characters getting abused unendingly by cishets in fiction is one of my big pet peeves, but I’ve read stuff featuring that and gotten along with it before, so yooooo!
That is distressing, sorry to hear you were kicked out
easily one of the shittiest things… Hopefully it’s less distressing when next you go back to it 
VN talk!!!!!
That’s great that you seem interested in it! The endless abuse is luckily not the only thing going on with that character, and the chapter which focuses on that aspect is one of the shorter ones overall with it only coming into play halfway through so it’s also relatively brief. If you want any extra content warnings don’t hesitate to ask, since there are a few other ones due to its nature as tragedy. If you do read it please don’t hesitate to message me about it since I don’t have a ton of people to discuss it with and I would love to get to yap about it in more detail for once!
And thank you for the concern.
I haven’t been updating here as much as I could about my situation since the first month but I’ve been doing much much better and have mostly stabilised since then, both emotionally and economically. I’m also just much happier now that I get to be myself and not repress myself as much anymore.
LFG (I am prolly gonna play more Celeste first but
)
Waow, the Novel is Visual...
You can bet when I pick it up I’ll be sure to post about it
Oh fucking shit this has a PS Vita version? I should fucking dust off my Vita for this!!! Yoooooooooooooooo!!!
I expect it to be sufficiently traumatic but I’m kinda ready for it. Readying the hype train.
And ofc
Glad to hear the good news, and that you’re in a better place after all of that. Love to see it 