When will be your “this is the last fucking time I’m voting for the ‘lesser of two evils’, then I don’t care after that, let this country burn to the ground”? For me, this is basically it. This is last election I’m going for that " lesser of two evils" bullshit. After that I’m done. It’s just pointless. Let’s hear it.
I’m glad you at least made it against such steep odds. For me, it’s just idle wishing-- I’ve got like three disabilities that automatically strike me off the lists of just about every country where I could actually put my skillset and training to use, and not enough money to offset those disabilities. At this point, I’m just rolling along until I either neck myself, or I get shot twice in the back of my head by some settler pig and they file it as a self-frag on my death certificate. Only living out of spite for the world I was born into, really.
That’s a bitter pill. I was lucky in that regard – my disabilities might be mild problems in the big picture, but give me a significant advantage in specific contexts like cram-studying. Surviving out of pure spite I am also quite good at too.
If we’re being honest, I don’t even know what I’d do if I had to deal with racism and armed police in my daily life. My biggest challenges were smaller things like poverty, bureaucracy, and hunger. Overcoming them made me stronger, sure – but strong enough to deal with that? I think I’d fall apart.
Integrating here was a strange thing. I more or less consider myself Vietnamese (if this isn’t my home and my culture, I don’t know what would be) but I was born white in Canada, and that’s what people see. It’s a weird mix of undeserved privilege and inconvenience. What’s really screwed up, is when other white people in Asia just start casually telling me about their crimes as if it’s a normal thing to talk about when there’s only white people in the room. Most people are not like that of course, but when it happens, it’s so fucked up. I don’t even know how to respond.