Oh, fuck. This would have been nice to know sooner.

Where I live that might actually be a good deal on the cigarettes. Haven’t bought one in a while though so I’m not sure.

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I read this in Arnold’s voice

Yeah it was really weird earlier when I first found it and I saw detailed scientific discussion and then someone said they were “bullish”. I imagine it would be like seeing a centaur in person for the first time.

Sorry, I’m getting tired so this response won’t be as complete as I would like. Disclaimer: all of this is based on my own experience and I don’t know how much others differ.

Ketamine was great. I’ve been around the mental health world quite a bit in the past few years and tried all sorts of treatments, and one of the things that surprised me when I started ketamine was how much they let you flounder with less effective stuff before doing ketamine. I remember reading the wiki article on it and the success rate was incredibly high compared to other things I’d tried before.

In case you’re going in expecting to have a mild experience like with most medications, don’t. The first session at the reduced dose I mentally was in another dimension. It’s not uncomfortable or scary, it’s just also not subtle by any definition. It wears off quickly, for me almost always within 45 minutes if I slept the night before, and those 45 minutes never felt way longer. My tolerance built up quickly and twice a week for the first month ended up with less impactful sessions than when I went down to once a week. If I skipped a week or two the next session was pretty much back at full strength.

The goal is to wake up some of your neural pathways you’ve neglected to use while depressed. Think of it as hiking trails through a forest that have become overgrown so you stick to the comfortable, well-travelled ones (depression). What this means for what you might experience is the awakening of some of your demons so you can confront them and leave them behind. The good thing is that they’re not scary in the moment, but you likely will come out of some more intense sessions feeling some ways about stuff. After the whole thing I would say definitely worth it, and I’m the “avoid anything even slightly unpleasant at all costs” type. ETA: I also had a lot of “epiphanies” about stuff I already knew that helped me see reality in a different way. For example, I already knew that most of my issues were situational, but through these sessions I realized that if a problem is from something outside of myself, that means it’s not evidence that there’s something wrong with me. I know it sounds silly when written out, but those are the types of revalations I had and that specific one has been one of the strongest tools I’ve had since then.

Ketamine was the last treatment I did for my depression, a rather severe case with one of the episodes lasting a few years and a serious suicide attempt. Depression is no longer on the list of things I feel the need to actively work on (apart from small maintenance to my thoughts) and I’ve discontinued all of my depression meds that I was relying on before that.

There’s a bot here for that… I just don’t remember how to use it.

It’s very similar but it’s not the exact same (not including the time release part). Vyvanse is 100% dextroamphetamine after time release; adderall is 3/4 dextro and 1/4 levoamphetamine. Different people feel that differently, for example with only dextro I feel much calmer/less prone to anxiety, but without the small amount of levo I have trouble motivating myself and can fall asleep easily. They also have 100% dextro in instant release format: dexedrine or zenzedi.

No kidding, I stared at it for a minute going “is this going to set it off?” and when my brain finally decided it couldn’t come up with an explanation it launched hard into the skin crawling, scalp itching and nausea. It’s like visual kryptonite.

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I read hippos as hippies and was thoroughly confused by the time I read the whole thing

Thank you YudgeHolden

Holy fuck 200k workers!? I’m not familiar with lemmy internals but I’ve literally never seen any program run anything close to well at levels that high. Want some help from someone who is a DevOps engineer by day? I think I remember you said you were a psql dba professionally so maybe my experience could help out?

Sir, are you aware you’re leaking coolant at an alarming rate?

Yeah, let’s do this!

This is something I just commented on somewhere else, I’ll paste it here:

I don’t believe they’re really concerned with replacing the mods right now. I think what they care about is the number of times people are coming from search results and seeing that the subreddit is now private instead of what the search was for. They also probably want to get ahead of it fast because Google’s gonna stop pointing to them for results that don’t exist anymore. That’s why getting the sub public but locked is what they’re doing instead of replacing the mods with interim mods and keeping the content coming.

Money is #1 for them, spez has his investors breathing down his neck, and he’s so burnt out on being involved that his PR is absolute crap but of course he won’t leave without the payout he’s worked so hard for. If you look at it from that perspective it all makes sense, at least for someone who only cares about money.