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  • Ho_Chi_Chungus [she/her]@hexbear.net
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    8 months ago

    honestly, right now I don’t even consider myself “trans”, just “not cis” it doesn’t feel like much, but honestly I can’t understate what a huge effect telling myself that has had on me. It’s been not even 4 days since the egg cracked and I’ve already found myself just… so happy. Twice I’ve randomly just teared up while driving around. I looked in the mirror and actually smiled at what I saw. I honest to god don’t think I’ve ever even done that before :)

    I can’t even type the same anymore. I keep putting little heart emojis and :) smileys in everything and it’s great! 💕💕💕

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      8 months ago

      I always got so disappointed getting my hair cut. I always felt like I had to get it cut shorter than I wanted and it ended up even shorter afterwards. Whenever I showed people afterwords, I almost felt hurt when they said how nice it looked

      Now I don’t even have to go back to get my hair cut until next year :))). maybe it can wait even longer? who knows???

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        8 months ago

        CW: The cheesiest, most Hallmark movie ass shit you’ve ever heard

        It’s funny looking back at it. Of course I had the “absolutely not cis” thoughts back then but there was a never ending well of suppression I could draw on to shrug them off. Only over the last like… 2-3 weeks of my life have I ever even made a decisive effort to actually start respecting myself and actually asking what I wanted. Only once I earnestly believed I could want things and I was deserving of them did the egg finally crack after 2 fuckin weeks

        Now I get to do fun trans girl stuff and nobody can stop me :3

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          8 months ago

          yeah!

          but that’s so real, i spent years repressing shit but now i constantly look back on being 13 and go “ohhh, that was because i was trans!” about all sorts of shit, it was absolutely impossible to take any step towards really knowing myself without having that ground understanding