We really do live in a society, huh? 
You’d think I’d be numb to all this shit by now. But I’m just sad.
We broke the 2-degree threshold in global temperature increases recently. Media shrugs.
Covid spike yet again. The media tells us to harden up or die.
Everything fuckng sucks. Wages suck, prices suck.
The people protest, they rightfully don’t want to boil from climate change or the genocide of Palestinians. The capitalist government says fuck you and arrests them. Very cool and democratic.
Death, disease, poverty. Everything is falling apart. I feel powerless. Like I’m watching the murder of something beautiful and all I can do is watch. The powers in charge of this are monsters. All they seem to want to do is make everything worse and anyone who doesn’t agree with fucking up literally everything is labeled an extremist.
Shits traumatic.
I’m at this weird point where I’m working on my education to earn higher wages when I begin working again, but I know that I’m going to ultimately use the money to fund a painless and quick way to end my life. After my parents pass on, of course.
One of the things that keeps me alive is knowing how much my being alive pisses off fascists. Whether it’s because I’m poor, or because I’m non-binary, or because of my neurodivergence, I know that terrible people would love for “useless eaters” like me to off myself. I’m not going to let them have that.
Please hang in there comrade, imagine how good it will feel if we win.
Im gonna keep going, winter is the worst season for these feelings. Seasonal Affective Disorder and such.
That’s my plan as well, don’t wanna disappoint them, just join them. This world fucking sucks and I don’t want be a part of it.