Comrades, that time again! How have things been going for you? Anything cool you wanna talk about? Things not so great? This is your space to talk about it! Remember, you are loved 
Up and down for me. Tour was a complete dud, we’re never working with the booking agent again, and my ex let me know she’ll be moving out in the middle of December. I’m glad they’ll get to spend some time with their parents, they’ve been talking about moving back for years, but I just wish it was under better circumstances. Not sure what I’m gonna do yet. On the bright side, love life seems to be on an upswing again. The person who got us hotel rooms on tour came over to hang out last night. We had a few drinks with the corgi, and then TRIED to watch that killer sloth movie, but we both fell asleep on the couch for like 2 hours together. THey also baked me a loaf of chocolate pumpkin bread to say welcome home, which was super sweet.
Hope you’re all well!
Dealing with overdrafts at the end of the last few months. I’m trying to take time off where I can because the burnout is getting to me, but I can’t afford to. I’ve run on fumes like this for a while in the past, but it’s a little different now.
Part of the reason for the change in finances is that I’ve finally gotten a good therapist. I’m processing a lot of stuff and managing my feelings of shame/inadequacy better.
What I thought was me being deceptive or manipulative was likely masking my ND traits. I’m more at peace with how I am as a person and I’m not spending as much bandwidth trying to fix or change myself.
I’m learning how to give myself the grace I wanted and needed when I was younger. I’m not exactly there yet, but I’m finding myself and realizing I’m a lot closer than I thought.
My big goal by the end of the year is to get signed to an agent. I’m revising a novel and finishing up a book proposal for a nonfiction book. That would give me the breathing room to leave my BS job and/or move to a cheaper area.
Glad youre finding help with therapy, and good luck with the agent! Keep us posted!
Thanks!! I was in a space for a while where I thought I wasn’t going to feel better and I feel really lucky to have met a therapist who wants me to rest and do less.