In short, I’m miserable, lonely, and broke. I need to get the fuck out of California and into someplace with rent less than $1000 a month. I also need to find a job that gets me like $25 an hour. I’m good at data entry and formwork and I have a really great voice I have no idea what to do with. I have absolutely no clue what I’m doing and I suck ass at all the important parts of being a person, and all the people who try to help me can’t help me or I don’t get it because I got the full power of the spectrum radiating inside of my forebrain and it’s fucking me up.
I’ve tried budgeting with spreadsheets and it doesn’t work for me. I’ve tried looking for work but it’s a brand new hell every time I open the browser. I hate this. I fucking hate that mental illness fucked me up when I was supposed to figure out my life and now that I’m finding a bit of peace within myself I still have to contend with all the things everyone else has to do and recognizes as shitty but somehow get done while I just suck ass at everything.
Help me.
I feel this deep in my bones. I’m so burnt out that I’ve just given up on trying for anything, even the things that make me happy. So now I just feel like I am actually a lazy fuck. Self fulfilling prophecy. I’m sorry you’re struggling with this, it’s awful.
I have a suggestion for work, maybe, if you’d like it
Not OP, but please do share
This probably won’t work for everybody, but looking at county jobs doing reception/intake work for things like your state’s developmental disability services could be doable. In my county it’s a union job with good wages, flexible schedule, hybrid, etc. Plus if you actually get in to that particular program, I’d think that they would be more flexible/welcoming to people with autism…I hope. Lol.