BP2. I’ve been in a depressive episode for almost 2 weeks now and I just can’t fucking deal right now. I run my own business and I’m ready to fire one client and to tell another to take their project elsewhere. I know, I KNOW I should not be making decisions like this in this state, but I just can’t handle it anymore. I basically quit in the middle of a meeting this morning because I couldn’t handle another pedantic fucking conversation, and now everyone is messaging me asking if I’m OK, and I’m not. And there’s really fun work that I should be focusing on, but I’m too preoccupied with the crap stuff, and I only have like 1/10th of the energy I should have, anyway, so I can barely muster the energy to just exist.

Thanks for reading. Maybe tell me to not screw up my life right now. Or tell me to go for it. I’m good either way.

  • AttackBunny@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    11 months ago

    I can relate. Also business owner.

    The only thing I can tell you is delegate as much as you can. Beyond that, keep up the bare minimum, as hard as it is. Don’t be too hard on yourself if you can’t do all the things or need to take more breaks.

    • anakin78z@lemmy.world
      OP
      1·
      11 months ago

      Thank you. Delegating everything is what I generally try to do, but my business is small enough that there’s still a lot on my plate either way, and of course we’re hitting crunch time right about now (yay extra stress). Sometimes I think I may just go back to a day job, but I’m sure the lack of flexibility there would have its own issues.

      • AttackBunny@lemmy.worldEnglish
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        11 months ago

        I struggle with the same thing. Especially when shit starts going sideways (like right now actually).

        I’m too far “damaged” by being self employed to go back to working for someone. The flexibility makes so much of a difference for my mental health