I suppose it makes sense. I have no close friends and I completely avoid social situations unless I have to be in them. It would explain why I always feel like the center of (negative) attention in any given room, or why I always feel like I’m annoying people or that I sound smug.
The doctor told me people with AVPD often have trouble understanding who they are as a person, and can’t latch onto specific identities, but I haven’t thought about that much. The pamphlet and stuff I’m reading online also seems to suggest AVPD has such overlap with social/general anxiety they’re almost the same thing.
Anyone else have experience with this?
I’ll be talking about this to my therapist now, thanks. Or psychiatrist? I dunno.
I love people and want to help as much as I can and for everything to be OK for everyone and for everyone to love me. I just feel a lot of times that I’m not cut out for this whole “socialization” thing.
If I hear someone laugh on the bus, I will assume it’s at me and shrivel up and check for bird poop.
If someone starts yelling in public, I will assume it’s at me. :/
Idk how normal this is.
Also, “alien v predator disorder”. I said it
that sounds very stressful and I hope you’ll be ok
