Holy shit this makes way too much sense. I simply don’t feel seen most of the time. It’s like those that are close to me just refuse to acknowledge me, even when it is clearly not their intention, and that sucks. It makes sense now why I always struggled with “I love you” and even with calling people friends, because these things mean different things to me and whenever I’m put into a position where I have to say these things it almost always feel weird, except in a few cases when I mean it and it feels natural.