I’ve been dealing with anxiety since I was a child. Alcohol and drugs make it worse in the long run. What helped me was behavioral therapy and antidepressants. But that took years until I was finally mostly over my socialphobia.

What I want to say is that it’s a long journey. But it does get better and it does feel great. I wish you all the best with your recovery and you don’t have to go through this alone. All your comrades will support you in your healing progress.